DyingSouL

Chinse New Year !!

2009-01-19T12:11:00.003+08:00

0h MAN, CNY is just in 8 days time.
2009 going to be a fast year!
Have been busy at work, but yet just to sian to work.
probably is the holiday mood.
everything is going on fine.

have been meeting up with my cousins,
for lunch and prayers.
is a good reunion i guess. updates on each other, blah blah.
thats good.
so long as we still keep in touch.

besides that,
sue just came back from PHUKET! she does water rafting man.
will be going bintan on 14 - 15 Feb 09.
bringing my mum along for a short weekend trip.
dad doesnt wanna go so .. will plan the next trip with him ba.

i need short weekend trips !! slowly to explore the world.
hahaha then make it big to EUROPE.

Aunty LAst Journey

2008-12-15T21:01:00.003+08:00

My aunt last journey was held on 11 December 08.
We went for the ritual .. as we are the younger generation.
My aunt had not much friends, when she is around.
so we like to make it a crowded one,
hence we, the few cousins helped in the ritual.

Arriving at the cremation, my cousins cry & cry.
Seeing them heartbroken, i couldnt bring but to tear with them.
for my 22 years, i had never seen my 2nd uncle.
he came for all 5 days, and he cried !!!
which makes me feel that he isnt bad at all.
he son chase him out of the house, and he have no place to stay,
but my aunt take him in.
So the brother & sister relationship should be quite close.
i wanna helped him .. but i dunno how to help ..
i wanna talked to him, makes him happy, so that he wont feels he is alone.
but my teo chew not good .. so cant communicate.
But at least i tried.

my cousin said:"Why must we only gather with everyone only at such occasion"
After hearing i really felt disappointed.
and i question myself:"Why??"
Why must we only learn when we lost someone?
why must we get affected by the elder generation?
why people bear grudges?
why cant people be more forgiving?

i still leaves it as a question.

Anyway .. My family n myself strive hard to helped my cousins & uncle to
tied through the hard time of the wake.
On Saturday we went down to the ancestor place to pray my aunt.
My cousins & uncle sincerely thanks us for helping them at their weakest point.
But i was touched .. So silly of them ..
what are family for?

Hope my aunt will be happy
and hopes she looks upon her family =D

Work + Shock

2008-12-07T22:28:00.003+08:00

kailin and i was working today.
As Aunty Linda needed help badly, as short of manpower.
so we helped her out.

After the morning shift,
My cousin msg me and mention that,
my 3rd Aunt (dad side), passed away.
I WAS SHOCK.
the last time i met her was at my grandpa's wake.
and she is rather healthy beside the fact that she is having arthritis.
but other than that she is fine.

Heard that she was running a fever,
they she took panadol.
but is no getting any better, and perhaps asthma took place.
she reaches NUH, she passed on already.
Her body need to be transported to SGH for observation of the sudden death.

Tomorrow will be transported back to her home void deck.

Life is short, gotta appreciate what you have.

We used to be very close, but ..
In the past, she starts bullying my mum, that's why we shoOo away from her.
Now that she is gone, we cant bring the unhappiness isn't it?
Her daughters are still young, i would say, it is a unfinished journey.

Really hopes, her family will do good, and she will be happy.

Because for the religion.
she is a Buddhist so is her hubby.
and my grandma is a christian.
because of THE RELIGION, debating on which religious practise she should go through.
MY GRANDMA IS NOT ATTENDING HER OWN DAUGHTER'S FUNERAL!!!

super pissed.

But i m in no position to comment.

BUT is the last sight to see her own daughter.
and because her family doesn't wanna follow the christian way,
she is not attending the WAKE AT ALL !!!

sometimes i just ponder bout Christianity, no offence.
But both religion are meant to lead human on the right track isn't it?
so why criticize other religion?
Thank god i am a free thinker, but Christianity were never on my list.
even though i used to be studying in a catholic school, but they don't force.

Saddening

Not a good month to End of the YEAR

2008-12-03T22:36:00.002+08:00

Dad met in an "bike accident" last night.
He was turning out from the split road, seeing no car, he turned out.
And a bike suddenly appeared and hit into him.
Biker was injured.
So gotta call the ambulance.
Well sent him to hospital, made police report.
worst scenario will be attending court and might be fine + compensating the biker!
But i felt was the biker that is SPEEDING !!

Anyway, dad went to Comfort to report this case toO.
And all COMFORT could say was:"Made a payment of $1000 by end of the month!"
It acts as a deposit i guess for the insurance blah blah blah.

Thought i can confidently helped dad out on the financial side.
Who knows, boss held a meeting, and said that might need to review on this year BONUS!
due to the economic blah blah blah ...
MY GOD !!!
i was like .. OH NO !!!!

Hope everything will turn out fine.

*Pray Hard*

Return from PHUKET

2008-12-01T11:47:00.003+08:00

Got back from Phuket last week with Kailin
I wasnt as nice as we expect it to be.
Through words of mouth, through research, through pictures, it looks fabulous.
But is alittle off in reality.
The sea is indeed blue, but close to shore, its milky.
There were lots of ppl on a small island !!!
Ang Mohs more than the local ppl.
Our resort is rather far from PATONG BEACH.
So we are quite turned off with that.
But the resort is newly bulit hence facilities are all new.
so we are quite satisfy with the 2 star resort.
WE LOVE THE TOM YAM KOONG, pineapple fried rice, PANCAKES !!!
my god, thats the authentic wan man, its was good ! *Thumbs Up*

SHopping ..
erm lots of beach wears =D
But sellers are rude and aggressive.
Tuk Tuk there seems scary & dangerous. But its safe. haha

We only have time to go for the island hop to PHI PHI ISLAND.
initially wanna play water rafting.
But due to the south Thai part is flooding.
and the water raft generates from a dam.
The rapid water current makes the sports not recommended at this season.
BoOoHoOoO
Fishes in the sea are more or less the same.
Nothing special =(
was still hoping to see different types of species.

Conclusion:
We still prefer REDANG
at least is less commercialize than Phuket.

ITS MONDAY, back to work.
Dread as usual.
But CHRISTMAS is coming !!!
followed by NEW YEAR
and it will be CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!

gONNA be a fast month !!!

ciaoz

ITS FRIDAY !!!

2008-11-21T12:18:00.003+08:00

WoooHoOoo
Its Finally FRIDAY.
Meeting my cousins tommorrow for dinner at MISS 'U' CAFE !!!
Nice food, nice ambience, nice wine, THUMBS UP!

Thanks to Meijin for introducing that place.

5 more days to PHUKET !!
So excited. Was planning the itinerary with Kailin last night.
Going for Island hopping in express boat - 3100baht
Water Rafting - 1900baht

Gotta cut down on SHOPPING !! Oh noOoOoO !!!

But hope got nice food like tom yum goOng, pineapple fried rice.
AhHhHhH .. Miss koh SAMUI food !!!

hehehehe

Alright ..
Gonna lunch soon ..
BOTAK JONES ... here i come !!

hahaha

Bro's proposal !!!

2008-11-18T23:43:00.002+08:00

Oh my GOD .. my God !!!
MY BROTHER PROPOSED TODAY!
but it was a FANTASTIC one.

First,
he booked the entire CINEMA at cathay Cineleisure.
then invited my cousins, his friends, her friends, her cousins.
Secondly,
He did his own opening video,
followed by the kneeling down.
cup cakes stating:"Jas will you marry me, yes / no"
AND THE RING !!

After that is a MOVIE ... Nights in Rodanthe.

Watched before .. but .. worth watching it again under this kind of atmosphere.

Romantic !!

LOL

Alright

OFf to bed =D

SPECIALLY for SUE a.k.a Yuhui SAN

2008-11-17T11:27:00.004+08:00

DEDICATED TO MY BELOVED SUE YU HUI !!!
sue, you can see how farnie you are hor. hehe

Secondary 1

Secondary 3

Look at you now, you have GROWN UP !!! HAHAHAHAHAHA

yOU LIKE My dedication not.

hahaha

ICS LEAGUE

2008-11-15T19:39:00.003+08:00

Today is the ICS LEAGUE competition.
Swimmers from Stingers, Fighting Fish & our very own team APSC.
As usual, our coaches arent doing a fantastic job.
Unlike the other 2 teams.
as they are 'Ang Mohs', the coaches treats their children very differently.
when they are swimming, they shouted:"Come'on, you can do it".
When they reached, they shouted:"great job/ bravo/ fantastic"

But for my coaches, they are from china
when they are swimming, they shouted:"FASTER! swim faster!".
When they reached, they turn around and walked away.

you spot the different culture?
my god, we are just so .. unprofessional ..

after the swim meet,

Went BUgis the "记得吃" for desserts with Aunty Kat, Keryn & Kailin.
IT WAS SUPER REFRESHING =D
I ate the mango with hashima. *Thumbs Up*

Hurhur

Reached home, napped.

waiting for DINNER

11 more days to PHUKET

Here Comes SATURDAY

2008-11-14T22:21:00.003+08:00

Was scanning the old school photos, and sent it to Kailin.
It was hilarious, esp Sue~ Her hair are still LONG !!!
Back then we are still having fun as a group.
But as we grew, we starts to drift.
from a group of 9 of us, will always be shrink to 3 of us.
Its very sad.
But thats life.

After revival of the blog.
i read thru' the past entries after so long.
There is an entry which i will never forget,
and it is still in my heart.
i witness the death of my grandpa.
he looked at us, he waited for all of us, and he shed a tear.
and he is gone forever.
i misses my grandparents!

12 more days, kailin n I setting off to PHuket !
cant wait.
Its tiring, ever since the new season at work.
regrouping of the competitive teams.
people leaving & joining the family.
coaches aren't doing team work.
teachers are hoping to climb up without ability.
dealing with parents.
it just kills.

I need a break

Going to bed soon.

Gotta wake up at 5.30am
gotta work .. got Competition tommorrow =)

Revive

2008-11-13T23:15:00.003+08:00

Finally revive!

My house under renovation.
Everything as per normal.

Work, nothing fascinating.
Neither do i like nor dislike wad i am doing.
Was working on 8 Nov 08.
When Uncle keith speaks to me:"When do you wanna attached to my class?
to see how the difficult the different learning level of his children."
When he said that, i felt sarcasm.
To be very frank, when i placed the children to the class, i have no idea
the progress of the children. wHY PUT the blame on me?
If he cant teach, then say so ..
He said it infront of Uncle Shane, but what Shane did was just laughing away.

I hate my work worst, is to face teachers like them !
My location in charge, shane, are like those ppl who talk big but no action those kind of guy.

Times i question myself why am i still staying? when i feels i m not happy.
Facing them i just dread to work.

From the day, Uncle Alvin said to me:"you cant even get your job done, you are so incapable." it hits me .. but it got numb after that.
cz he said that to everyone.

In a small company .. there is still politics .. i bet the bigger organisation will be worst.

Sigh

2007-03-05T11:44:00.000+08:00

Before that ...

Meet up with Sue & Kailin for Some FUn !!!

Finally got a chance to gather together to cuts DADdy Birthday cake and as well as Sugar baby 1 year old birthday cake. The warmth feeling given off by the family is just so good.

2007-02-15T18:17:00.000+08:00

Finally the last paper of the semester is over!

Mummy's birthday is on the 8th Feb'07

The END
hehe

2007-01-19T00:21:00.000+08:00

Well is kinda late.
But i will take it as it is still 18th January 2007.
Happy Birthday JAY CHOU !!!
Happy Birthday Sebastian ( my brother ) !!!

Did not attend school today.
Mum legs hurts real bad. But she still gotta go to the market.
So i accompanied her.
It hurts me so badly to see her in pain.
I wish i could bear the pain for her.
Can I ??
*sigh*
Helped chee wee cover his shift in the afternoon.
And there goes one day.

Nothing much to say.
I can only say ..
Its been a tiring.
Tests and Exams are around the corner.

Probably i should start praying.
Hopes things will turn out like wise than wad i m expecting.

You were like my strength back then.
Whenever i m down, you are always there for me.
But i noe the situation is different now.
Cz u will never come back.
If u ever thought of turning back .. You wont even chose to let it go.
Its been 11months 12days.
I dun feel as much pain as u first inflicted on me.
The memories are following the traces of the time
and the vision starts to turns foggy and vague.
The deep wounds are recovering.
But scars remains FOREVER.

*sigh*

2007-01-16T19:33:00.000+08:00

Here comes the BEST ARRIVALS of the Month
Our ex-classmate, ADILAH's Wedding!

Gosh she looks FABULOUS !!

The USED TO BE sacian HAVE ALL GROWN UP!!
Wishing her all the best for her wedding! hehe

Exams coming
Common tests coming

Everything will ends on the 15th FeB'07
and i have nothing to do with NYP!
What am i supposed to do nexT?
Sign on NAVY?
Office Lady?
Further Studies?

Haiyah!!
Super sian

2007-01-11T19:36:00.000+08:00

Alrite shall update my blog since i accomplished something yesterday.
hahahaha!
Only got accomplishment den can update wor.
hahahaha!

Went for the fixed relay school biathalon yesterday.
Mixed means : 400m (8 Laps) swim and 3.5km run.

And logically i am doing the swim.
Partner, Derrick will run.
THough we didnt get into the top 5 positions. But johnathan and jacklyn did.
We came in the 8th position. Among 50 or more competitors.
Derrick asked if i were disappointed. Actually nope.
He seems disappointed though.
BUT i told him ...
WE ARE IN THE TOP 10 POSITION.
I am not born as a swimmer and he is not born to be a runner. No proper trainings ..
WE ARE FANTASTIC enough. hahaha
And guess that brightens up his night.
Both our individual timings improved from the trial.
used to be 13mins , now 8.49mins (8 laps)
used to be 20mins, now 17mins (3.5km)
Isnt that a big improvement. hahahahA!

As for today .. Super tired .. reached home super early ..
and knock out!

2007-01-01T23:15:00.001+08:00

Shout Out to everyone!
Happy New Year' 07 !
Hope the year ahead would be a better one.

Tommorrow is grandpapa's 83th birthday if he is still around.
Is just a few months more. But he didnt manage to enjoy the last warmth family gathering.
Without this man (grandpapa) of the house... The entire house seems so cold.
EVERYONE IS CHANGING !!! disputes here and there.
Grandpapa, grandmama must be real heartbroken to witness everything.
AUTHORITY kills !! Why one just cant live without being under AUTHORITY.
WHy cant there be fair & equal treatment? why cant everyone be on PAR ??!!!???
sigh
Grandpapa ... Happy 83th Birthday...
I miss ya

School REOPENING ...
dread ...

2006-12-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

Cuzzie Jac Wedding was yesterday.
Reached her place at about 6am.
Helped to layout the punishment thingy.
About 7.30 to 7.45am the groom and his brothers came.
And they were early ... Earlier then we expected...
Asked them to sing the unchained melody
followed by bitter drink.
5 questions :
1) when is their first kiss - punishment : drinking Pure Lime Juice
2) Who has the hairest leg among them all - Punishment : waxing of legs
3) how many pairs of shoes does Jac have - Punishment : drinking maple syrup
4) which kindergarten is Jac from - Punishment : 1 tube of Wasabi and Maggi Chilli sauce sandwich
5) 5 reasons why must we let him have the KEY - Punishment : wear disposable underwear each. Dance pole dance while the groom will sing.

The brothers will very united. Quite fun though .. Good experience ..
The brothers Not very handsome though but one of them driving Mazda RX 8..
Cool right .. but dun be surprise is his brother's car. hahaha
3 tables of NS men .. I am located between the tables !!
Cz i need to help on the "confeti" .. those bomb bomb thingy.
Can shoot up to 8m.
haha .. So the guys were like talking to me ...
Cool thing .. but still ...THEY ARE SIGNED ON !!! TOO EGOISTIC for me !
hahaha
Anyway Jac is BEAUTIFUL on her day! *envious*
Bubble (dreaming): when will it be my turn? hahaha !!! Can anyone OFFER to be my BF? LOL ... BF for SALE ?? haha JK

Anyway best wishes to them !

Can anybody offer to change my blog skin for me ???
I m just too LAZY ..
And i m tired of those pictures which is so UNREALISTIC.
hahahahaha ...
A upcoming NEW YEAR therefore i need a new blog skin!

OFFer? haha

CHRISTMAS ... HERE I COMEeeEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEE

2006-12-16T10:39:00.000+08:00

Was out with my mama yesterday.
Out for KFC feast! hahaha
Is like KFC again!
Back home and slack! PLay maple!
HAHA

jAC cuzzie wedding tomolo
gotta be at her house at 5.30am.
All thanks to my brother gotta be there as a photographer.
Dad's picking us up!
But still .. EARLY!

And i am SICK again!!
Voiceless !! ARGHHHHHHhhhhh
How to BARGAIN FOR RED PACKET!!
hahahahaha
SUPER SIAN !!!

Alrite going to my aunt's place
Used to stay a old couple.
But the lady of the house left 7 years ago ...
the man of the house left 6 months ago?
But everytime i looked into the room of the lovely couple
I sense that they are still around.
Though everything is so vague. But It seems as though it just happened.
sigh ..
I miss them so MUCH !!
So much till i cant even express it.
i LOVE u GRANDPA GRANDMA
Always deep down my heart.

2006-12-04T00:07:00.000+08:00

Working Yesterday with Kevin.
Left work early to meet up with Jac and Pauline cousins.
Bought a pair of shoe to go with my night dress.
Then they treat me to Sushi Teh for dinner.
All the dishes, 3/4 all or salmon and sashimi.
HAHA .. Enjoyable dinner.

TOday went Aunt ah Lan place to dye hair and for facial with mama.
Met up with 3rd aunt for shopping spree @ Vivo City.
Tired beat.
Bought another dress for 59 bucks for morning wear.
And a WATCH !! hahaha
I like another watch .. will go back and buy.
haha

Joined school biathalon with derrick in the mixed relay.
Swim 400m (8 laps) and run (3.5km)
Obviously is i swim he run.
hahaha .. Didnt wanna take part.
Since he need a partner for MIXED relay to help him swim
So joined lor.
10 Jan'07 is the THING ..
Relax only

Common TEST comming !!!
ARGH !!

2006-11-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

Weather is so tempting this morning.
Dont have the thot of getting off my bed.
But i still woke up in the end.
Lesson starts at 10.10am and supposed to end at 12pm
I reached school about 11.15am.
The lab is already OVER !!!
How wonderful.
Asked Samuel to wait for me in the lab.
To do our communication skills homework.
HaHa .. Amazingly he still able to wake up.

Anyway after school ..
Met up with Jac cuzzie at Raffles Place.
To clementi .. Uncle derrick's shop opening day.
Whole family members were there.
Luffing and talking abt Jac sis wedding.
Is like so fast lor .. 19 more days to her wedding.
hehehe
So gan jiong . CZ I AM THE SISTER !!
HAHAHA
No la just to anxious cz gotta usher 3 tables of NS guys.
EXCITED. hahahaha
HAPPY FOR ME? ENVIOUS?
DUn be .. gOT good guys i will SHARE.
hahahaha

After that home sweet home

2006-11-26T11:43:00.000+08:00

Monday working in school.
Raining heavily.
CAUGHT under the stupid rain.
And fall sick.
How wonderful.

Went out with Jac cuzzie last tuesday
to buy my dress for her wedding.
Bought a dress from danial yam which cost like 80bucks.
What to do .. will be her sister on her wedding day.

Met up seb, cynthia cuzzie, jamie cuzzie & yekai on wed.
to celebrate yekai bdae.
Went bukit timah for dinner
then down holland V. wala wala to chill.
The live band wasnt as bad as i expected.
But the guy singer is handsome!
hahaha
And i actuali missed my SWIM TRAINING.

Meet up with sue at plaza sing on thurs.
And the rest at Cine. Include samuel and mich's izaac.
LOL
After subway .. went balcony to chill.
Samuel attain the best drinker award.
LOL .. wad to do .. he suxs
So sway .. LOL !
Anyway pity him.
The night falls ..
&
Home sweet home.

Friday the land training.
Fun like usual.
Ran 4km. Gym and swim!
Tiring but it was great.
Had Mac with the rest of the guys.

Had a family BBQ ytd @ pasir ris park.
Din get to cycle much as it was raining.
But kinda fun with so much food
and what matter most is a family GATHERING.

As for SUNDAY ..
Another working day in sch

2006-10-05T23:26:00.002+08:00

In half an hour time it's the 6th of Oct.
Is Lantern Festival Day!
Oh ya .. KaiyUn if u are reading this: wishing u a HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!
Reporting to Camp at 5pm tomolo.
Sounds like i am undergoing NS.
But nah .. if u follow up with the entry .. its Water Sports Camp!
3 more days before School reopen. thing.

Losing 2 grandpa within a Semester.
Still trying to accept the fact that they are gone.
Still hoping it was all a DREAM!
My heart breakdown whenever i went to pay respect to my grandpa.
HE IS GONE F.O.R.E.V.E.R !!!
I CAN NEVER GET HIM BACK AGAIN !!!
I HAVEN TOLD HIM HOW I MUCH I LOVED HIM !!!

GOD IS SO CRUEL TOWARDS ME !
Blow after blow .. I cant take it ..
I m dying.
My soul is shouting for HELP.

Can somebody take me away
PLEASE !!!

*Sigh*

2006-10-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

School reopening next monday, 9th Oct.
Time flies. Yet to Enjoy my holiday.

Going for water sports camp this fri till sun.
Thank god at least there are still some meaningful thing i can do before school reopen. Besides working and working.
HahA!
WAter SPorts consists of LifeSAving, Kayaking, WAter polo, dRagon Boat.
Cool right.
Its been a long time since i last camped.
haha!

Alrite ..
That's it !

2006-08-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

Its 3days after the 7th day of the wake.
Stayed up on Sunday. Because i Know its gonna be the last chance to see my grandpa in person.
Being looking at him lying peacefully in the coffin.
Seems like i have tons of things to say to him. But everything is too late.
I wanted to let him know he had been a fabulous grandpa and i wish to be his grand-daughter the next life.
Chemical injected on my grandpa is no longer taking effect.
His chest went flat, His head starts to shrink, His nose starts to dent in, His dark rings are no longer in sight.
I was telling myself i have to remember for life how my grandpa looked till his very last day.
But now i only have a vague memory. I am only left with pictures and his long eyebrows.

Monday was the cremation day.
The coffin was beautiful decorated with flowers. My grandpa looks great.
When the person asked us to take the last look of my grandpa before they close the window of the coffin. I teared. I told myself not to cry, but i can bring myself to stop crying. It hurts me badly. My heart is tearing apart.
When we reached mandai the cremorial place.
I feel scared all of a sudden. I cant let them take him away.
Pay the last respect. And they pushed him in.
We went to the viewing hall .. praying and praying.
But when we see the coffin being pushed. The harder i cried.
I breaked down completely.
At that very moment, all i can say is was "AH GONG ! AH GONG !".
Seeing the coffin moving closer and closer to the door of cremation ...
I feel like DYING ..
The whole world collapse.
Till the Coffin starts diminshed in the vision of our sight, the door shuts.
That's why i realised i have totally lose my grandpa.
I dont wish to accept the fact. I dont wish to face the reality. It is too much of an impact.
I cant take it.
I cried till my leg wobble, and my dad support me... All i can onli say was:"Daddy Daddy!"
I wanna tell him how much i want my grandpa back. But i cant speak a single word.
Tragic..
My dad see me cried so bitterly, he cant helped it but cried too.

Grandpa finally reunite with Grandma after 7 long years.
They will watch over us. They will be happy and no more suffering from pain and sickness.
I love you, grandpa.
I love you too, grandma.

Missed badly by me.

24 Dec 1924 to 15 Aug 2006
I will always bear it in mind.
The day when it starts inflicting pain.

2006-08-16T09:10:00.000+08:00

In school right now, cant start off with my work. Hence decided to blog.
Yesterday (15.08.2006, 0917) marked the last day that my grandpa is able to see daylight.
He passed on yesterday morning.
Was on my way to school. Receive a call from my mum.
Saying that my grandpa cant make it through. He only have an hour of life.
My whole world collapse.
He is the closest grandparents that i always stick to eversince my grandma passed away.
Gosh why is this happening to me.
Within a semester, i m losing to kins.
Furthermore he is someone whom dote me so much.
I cant accept the fact.
Am i dreaming? or Can somebody please tell me, is all this hallucination?
I M DYING !!
I am so tired.. I am totally drained..
*Sigh*
If only time could turn back and i can spent more time with him.
If only there aint so many IF. else i also wont be living with remorse.
He shed a tear when i died.
My heart breaks even more.

Dear GOD.. i know u are lightening the pain of my grandpa.
You gave him the strength to hold on to see all the childrean are surrounding him.
But you didnt fulfill his wish .. He wish to die on his very own bed..
Is this cruel?
You didnt gave him the strength to open his eyes once more to take a look at his kins.
You didnt even gave him a chance to speak!
*Sigh*

Darkest Moment
He will live in us ..
& i'll miss him ..

2006-08-01T21:04:00.000+08:00

Week 9 of my Final Year Project. 3 More weeks and here comes my holidays!
Hectic schedule for me recently.
Past 2 weeks have been busy with my training as 2 competitions are down.
Next week in the 4*50m relay, we got ourselves a Silver.
Is the First medal that i ever got in my poly years. So is a memoriable one.
This coming week is the National LifeSaving Competition @ Sentosa.
Gonna be a thrash one. As we will be competing with the National Swimmers.
So we are like so insignificant.

My dog, Sugar, just dropped her first tooth.
So cute right. haha~
Nutti fellow but adorable.

2006-07-17T22:17:00.001+08:00

7th week of my Final year Project.
Last friday was my mid-presentation.
Badly done ... Lecturers asked lots of questions. But i cant answer.
Have been going foR swim training since wednesday.
Cz Saturday had my lifeguard 1st competition.
Hurt my ankle and gotten blisters.
Tough competition, as most of them are national swimmers.
Totally worn out, exhuasted.
But had fun though.

Went to catch Pirates of the carribean with Matthew.
Farnie show though there isnt any ending.
Laugh throughout the show.

2006-06-19T11:33:00.000+08:00

Wednesday was a tough day.
Went gym with danial, zi-an, aloy, guo wei, sc.
Den went for a 2.4km run round the track.
Thrash 5 of them down except aloy.
After the run, went to meet jimmy, naomi, alvin down the "aisle" @ the pool. Swim for a little while. And catch up over the dinner feast.
Kahyong joined us shortly after we've settled down.

The next day ..
I was so down with fever, flu and cough.
Went back at abt 3pm from school.
Entire night couldnt get a blink of sleep. See a doctor .. rest at home and went tampines with mama. Shopped & bought shoes. hahaha~
Always nice being out with mama. Never leave for home empty handed. haha.

Saturday working. Melissa joined me at my work, boss need ppl. So asked to down to earn alittle. Crap thru'. these crazy ger thot me how to gamble.
haha!
Sunday working. Fathers' Day. Dinner together with my family watched soccer while eating. Japan and croatia.
Joined dad and bro in betting => brazil and aust. Thank god we brave thru'! haha..

back in school ...
bored as usual...
Going for a swim, stupid sam forever late!
argHh ..

2006-06-09T23:34:00.000+08:00

Final Year Project starts.
Working on Networking. Internet Protocol Version 6.
Supervisor rather strict. But i still slack my way through.

Went to meet the sport club captain.
Cute chap from nursing. Shy guy .. haha ..
Went to meet ivan in-charge of lifesaving.
Joined lifeguard. Taking part in competition.
Know new guys! hahaha ... ..
Dragon boat vice cap => Kelvin .. damn shuai loR.
sian ..

I'm glad that u called & read my post.
I'm glad that as a friend u still shows ya concern.
It's the 7th the u rang up my life again.
The 4th month *Sigh*
Time flies...but My heart skipped when i hear from u again.
The tears accumulated till the brim of my eyes. But i didnt dropped a tear.
Probably .. Everything seems to be getting over.
My heart still aches when i hear u once again.
But the scar still remains.
I'm so afraid to get involve in a r-ship.
What if the same things happened?
I closed up that door to my heart.
I'm so afraid to be hurt again.
Feelings are fading off as time goes by.
The urge to slip u off my mind.
But my heart stopped it all from happening..
*Sigh*

When will the right guy appear?
Hahaha .. God bless me !

2006-06-02T18:01:00.000+08:00

19th May'06 marked the darkest moment of my life.
My grandpa (dad's side) passed away.
A old man whom is always so strong and sturdy, passed away in the middle of the night at 0024am.
Till now it still seems like a dream.
I couldnt believe it was the reality. And i chose to avoid it.
All i could only think of was forgiveness.
At the wake, My aunties and Uncles & cousins quarrelled.
One will only learn, regret & remorse abt wad they did until they lose something.
But we the cuzzies got even closer. My heart still closes so that no body will enters.
But i noe i needed u right at the moment.

I passed my Traffic Police after the 3 trial.
Mum came along with me. Thank god, she is my moral support.
But the very second moment when i got the news that i pass. I wish he was right beside to hear and share my joy. But he was vaguely found.
We are merely friend but still i cant feel him.

Last day of attachment! YahOoOo.
Freed from irritants and pesters.
Will be returning back to school on Monday.
Hope can same class with handsome chaps! haha

Went Chill with SACIANs yesterday.
Was great, have a big luff.
But everything ends so fast.

If onli time can stop at the moment when i realli enjoyed!

2006-05-12T10:08:00.000+08:00

Haven been bloggin for quite some time.
Attachment is ending in about 3 weeks time.
Back in School For FYp.
Nafa is coming, 6th June. That's fast isnt it?
HahA .. Esther birthday had so much fun over at 85 market.
Watermelon .. That was like so History..
Thanks Dennis, Yichuan and Samuel ..
For painting my room and at the same time shifting my stuffs. haha~ Hard work!
Went zouk on wednesday ..
Haha .. First time to club!
Woah had fun !!
Thanks sue for accompanying me throughout.
I was badly drunk.. thanks to u and i m safe and sound on returning home!
Actualli i wasnt drunk just tipsy .. all thanks to danial that GRAVEYARD! and i m gone. haha
Johnathan went .. ah loy went too .. haha !
Sue .. john cute right !! haha ..
Alrite thats about it ..
My life been happening !! haha
After a bad fall .. i recovered !!
Congrats to me .. haha ~

2005-12-24T21:45:00.000+08:00

Early Christmas greetings to everyone!

It is my common test break this week.
Will be off to Thailand on 27th and will be back on 31st.
Went shopping for prezzie with my classmates while waiting for KL to knock off from work.
Went for my sec sch clique chalet last nite.
The both of us dread to go at the beginning. Tired!
But reached there okie lor. Mich and Sue cooked for us.
Sounds like a tai tai.
ZM came after that. But he met his friends there.
Such a small world. But he din mention anything to me bout them.
Sue's Birthday today! Had alots of fun especially cutting the cake.
I have nv been so happy. with mich silly actions too. "how many fairies fall frm the sky".
In the middle of the night, the Chanel (a dog) kept barking. Wakes us up.
But she seems like sue's real life alarm clock. Grin!

24/12/05
A day where it changes my life.
Must try to get use to single life again.
Maybe the trip will makes a U-turn. But it can nv change the fact.
on the return of our trip, 31st. The midnight sharp was how we started off a year 10mths ago.
Every single moment we shared perfect memories.
But once my hand slipped off his, my heart breakes down.
But no point holding to someone whom i noe he wasnt the one i once noe.
Things changes. So life changes too. Nothing is forever.
a word of assurance saying that the eve of christmas, his entire time is entitled to me. Guess its all big fat lies again. a quarter was contributed to the work. Which means i have to wait again.
Tired of waiting. So wad if i ever changeD back to a person with good tempeR? it will makes u climbs over me more. Then u will take it for granted & will u change for me?
There are so many question marks ard us.
Perhaps the u now wasnt the one who meant to bring me happiness.
But one thing i m perfectly sober. U are the guy who once showed me wads love.
Take care.
Hope the trip will be a perfect one.

2005-10-31T09:13:00.000+08:00

I dreamt.
In the middle of the night at 4 am. my grandpa fell terribly.
Forehead is swollen but not bleeding.
Apparently before he fell, he was having stroke. But no one realised.
Right now, Grandpa is lying on the hospital bed helplessly.
Weakness has overcome his entire body strength, body is not functioning well.
Awaiting for a person to hold him, to assure him once again that he will be alrite.
Looking at the back of his kins walking out of that lonely room, thinking that we are leaving him alone.
But in actual fact, we are all waiting out there for him, for that particular day when we can bring him home.
Prayers no longer helps, the determination within him will makes him live strong.
Kins trying to reach out to him, but there is no way we could grab him.
That blood clot right at his left brain is bleeding. The moment the doctor told us that, our heart bleeds together.
That clot will cause a senile in him. Probably within a day or even a week, he will never recognise us again.
Either the clot vanish or it will burst as it grows bigger.
And then, he will be living in coma.
A world where no one can reach out to him and vice versa.
For a moment, my world seems crumbling down. I felt so lost and nevertheless i feel so weak and helpless too.
I wish in this dream Miracle will happened and i m still waiting for the mirage.
My heart is confused. My mind swirl.
I wish i could understand wad he is going thru'.
Once that dream is over.
Things no longer virtual. It becames Reality.
I wish it was all a dream. I wish this dream will nv comes true.
BUT it turn out to be as real as anything.
Dear god, all i can onli asked for now is hoping u could walk thru' this pain with him.

2005-09-26T17:11:00.000+08:00

Today bad day.
Today unlucky day.
Today is a spoiler day.
Today is a spoiler week.

I failed my TP test.
Sigh.
Next re-test, 9th December.
Everything so Sucky.

Rina, so sorry didnt turn up for ur b'dae celebration.
Utterly disappointed.
So didnt wanna spoil the mood there.
My apologies.

I sux.
The Tester sux even more.
The Test Route sux even more.
The bloody fellow who makes me lose 10 points becz he saw i turn out, he drive even faster. He is the Scenerio MOST SUCKY role.
Haiyah, in another word, everything sux lah.

2005-08-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

Did spend an outing out @ Sentosa with my primary sch mates the other day. Lovely outing. Nice catching up with them and stuffs.
Few days after the sentosa outing, radical run by MIT @ Sentosa again. Went to help out. Kinda fun when kayak-ing with Rina. FUN but it seems like we cant get to another part of the beachy island.
Common Test has just passed. Nothing fascinating, well shld somehow just wad the outcome will turn out to be.
Its Adrian b'day today. Well i wished him as usual. The past kinda rack up. But it is just some bad memories.
Anyway went out with my boy's siblings & his friends from HongKong. Had some fun i guess. Went for the duck tours, followed by a river taxi down to marina south. Watched the fabulous fire works. BUT too bad xavier, his nephew was so frightened by the "BombBomb" sound. So gotta carry him. Didnt realli have some 2 people's time yesterday. And after that was Dinner!

nothing much

2005-07-29T10:26:00.000+08:00

This entry is Specially dedicated to KaiLin.
Ger i noe u might not like it in my entry But i think it is getting serious.
Sorry to meddle in ur personal life. Guess overall i m still no one to tok abt it.

Is the environment ard u that is changing u OR are u changing urself?
Think u realised that after all the OGL thingy, we aint close as last semester. We can tok abt anything under the sun. BUT now, guess we can only bring up the past to keep our friendship going. KNowing that during the OGL, u & the rest realli bond together closely. Making new friends & stuff, deeply i m realli happy for u. BUT sad for myself, guess from a good friend i m to u ONCE its becoming an aquaintance in ur life now.

Remember in the past relationship that u had. No matter how one treat u, u r still willingly to treat him good still. The old KL is always being bullied, always nice to everyone, no attitude, wont flare up unneccessarily. Right now i seen a BRAND NEW KL. Is that realli you? I feel that u are no longer the ger i used to now.

Friends are always on ur first priority than relationship. I once tok to u abt ur relationship with Andy @ SiewChin condo & last semester. At first u told me u dunno whether if u like him or wad. I can understand, becz it was still the beginning, everything was so unstable. Den SC house, i bring it up to u again. U told me, yes guess he is the guy that u want for him. And i m happy, cz i noe this guy is realli good to u.

Until recently, u changed to another person. Treating him as though he is no one to u. U are angry becz he always hang up with dennis. BUT remember u 2 have broken up, there is no reason he cant be with his friend. If he still stick to u, i believe u will get irritated rite? But dennis is a guy afterall, there is nothing to be worried of, andy's love for u is so pure that nobody can replace u! Put urself in his shoe, who can he still mix ard with when u aint by his side? friends right? didnt u mix ard with ur friends? Then tat freshie who likes u? didnt u go out 1 to 1 with him? i noe u are sociable, but is andy that invincible to u that u neglected his feelings & went out with ur freshie? how will he feel? wad if he went out with 1 of the freshie who likes him? Ger, sometimes u reali gotta put urself in others shoe. It is realli not like something that u will do if it was the past. The changes in u is so tremendous that every single one can see thru'.

U noe andy likes u so much that are u taking him for granteD? u noe that though if u 2 aint together, he still likes u, still holding on to u. Actualli everyone can see that he's still holding on to u. Dun treat him like no body, he is like u, a human. Who got feelings. Dun take him as he realli owe u something and is willing to do anything for u.

That day when we meet at Eunice work place. Actualli u can reach here much earlier than u reach that day if u come urself. I know andy got a car, but doesnt mean he is ur chauffeur. He did it without grumbling. If u were him, u got a car, are u willing to pick him up @ any part of singapore. I tell u, nowadays no one is that hardworking that is willing to do it for a ger lor.

Ger, i m sorry that some of my words are too harsh. Wanted to tok to u in person. But guess this is the best solutions since we hardly even tok. Think abt it whether u should treat him liddat and are u a person like this before? i can tell u, u aint like this b4. U may get angry becz i busybody in ur personal life, but i hope as a friend of urs, i wish to let u noe U ARE CHANGING. u can get angry for all the reasons that i care. May even lose u as a friend, but i will take this as a gamble. Either u realised or u dun. Either u get back an old friend or i dont. Either andy got back a nice sweet ger during the past few mths or he dont.

Think abt it ger.

2005-07-09T23:42:00.001+08:00

Haven been blocking for ages.
First of all .. Lab tests is up next week!

Attended my cuzzie wedding on Thursday @ CONRAD hotel.
Gosh, the whole place was like so POSH.
Anyway everyone was so excited on that day.

azy to blog le ..
stopped here le.

2005-06-14T18:37:00.001+08:00

School Days just so Bored.
My grandpa had been admitted into hospital last few weeks ago.
Now that he is back @ home. We are absolutely worried.
Upon looking @ him helplessly & seeing him lying on the bed being so weak.
My heart aches.

On Saturday, Working @ far east with Esther. Catch up quite alot ..
Miss her & the rest equally much.
Gers = can we plan an outing on a weekend Soon?

On Sunday, Went to my grandpa house. Almost all my aunties, Cousins are all there. Nice seeing them again. Haven been like catching up with them eversince i keep on Working. Cousin Boon cook Pizza. Too bad, didnt have a chance to TRY IT! but the rest said it was NICE. Superb.
Good Job Boy. Grandpa is healthy that day.

blog again

2005-06-05T00:31:00.001+08:00

1st week of school has ended.
Monday
Officially there isnt any school BUT i went back to school to take my excuse letter with a group of friends. Den we played Badminton & Basketball after that. Finally i'm exercising once again!
Gosh ... i PUT ON LOTS OF WEIGHT.
Tuesday
Back to school! Bought my books. Heavy like helL~ Got the feeling of crawling home. No wonder i'm getting shorter. Probably becz of all this books that i'm carrying STOP ME FROM GROWING. Nice catching up with the dudes in my class.
Wednesday
Gotta reach sch @ 7.45am cz of the Physics camp @ NUS. A couple of school went [TPJC, TJC, ACJC, CJC, MJC, YJC, INNOVA & NYP]. Kinda bored. But the experiments r INTERESTING!
Thursday
Gotta reach NUS campus @ 9am Sharp. Met up with Samuel @ Bouna Vista. When i reached the station Bouna Vista, i didnt noe i m supposed to alight. I stared blankly @ the station name. When the door closes den i realised i miss the stop! So stupid right! Thank god early morning train are fast & efficient. The very first lecture was FUN! esp the "not too loud" thingy.
Our lunch, we seems as though we are having buffet. LOL~ But overall kinda fun. Meet my boy @ Yew Tee, near his camp. Shop ard & sat 26stops to get back to BEDOK! *GrinZ*
Friday
The Night class starts! Tiring Long day. All LAB LESSONS! Starving like hell in class. No intervals EXCEPT for 6.00pm - 6.40pm. Went to grab some RICE!!! LOL~
the JIGSAW done. BUT sad to say ... way to goOoOooo ... Sigh!
Sunday
Working day @ FAR EAST!!!!
SIAN !!
There goes my WEEKENDS.

Alrite shall stop here ..

2005-05-28T15:51:00.004+08:00

In 3 days time i will be in school.
That's it for my holidays.
A hectic semester is starting.
Gotten my timetable & i hate it like hell.
At the beginning glance thru' the pathetic timetable i got, supposedly shld be happy becz MONDAY there is NO school for me. BUT i scan in furthday to FRIDAY, the happiness in me Gone with the wind! FROM 10.10am TO 9.30pm! Gosh~ CAN U IMAGINE!!!
It reminds me when i was in SEc 5 together with My cliqueS we'd Night study in school.
But those were the days. *SigH*
I'm no longer tied down by FRENCH Becz i will be taking Introduction to Entrepreneurship! Hopefully it will be much easier.
Will be seeing Nai Song Boh quite often this semester cz he will be teaching NETWORK Technology.
Lets put studies aside for the time being.

Stopped working currently but will still help out once in a week.
In need of cash is liddat de.
Sian, no work. So bored ... ROTTING at home!

Alrite shall stopped here le.

2005-05-23T09:48:00.001+08:00

Basically its my off day today.
All thanks to esther, else i'll nv be able to get a off today.
Lurve ya.

Got my advanced theory test result yesterday morning.
Gosh! amazingly i passed.
Yesterday was Vesak Day.
But there isnt lots of ppl as i was expecting to be @ town area.

Shall stop here then.
*down on flu*

2005-05-19T16:27:00.001+08:00

woke up @ 1pm this afternoon.
Its my off day once again. Got nth to do AGAIN!
went to the market with mama for our lunch.
Back home again

Going out
tata

2005-05-16T13:15:00.001+08:00

Life have been sucky.
Grandpa is in hospital.
Done with the operation.
Have been visiting him quite often @ SGH.

My Life is so usual, that i've been waking up @ 10.45 so unwillingly for work!
I really dread going to work.
If not becz i need cash. I think i will be spending my time @ home being "taitai" *gRinz*
Anyway i met Steph Poon ytd. She dropped by & pay esther & I a visit.
So sweet of her. Anyway she is filled with LOVE! She is with her Boy~ *gRinz*
Have been seeing my bus-stop boy this few days while going to work.
p.s : gers, remember the bus-stop boy?? haha

Mj: Read ur blog. A brand new start of urs, dun think abt the past. stand strong & take care.

Having my advanced theory test tommorow.
Guess waD? I haven start studying. Gosh
*Sigh*
Gotta go.
Anyway My brother is BACK from Brunei.
YiPpIe!
TaTa

2005-05-04T00:25:00.001+08:00

ReSuLts gonna be out real soon @ 6am.
So Steph, how are u feeling?? Gosh i feel like i m dying soon. My death is getting near, the nervousness in me gonna make me lose my sleep tonight.
I m asking myself a Question! Am I Crazie?
Argh ... ...
Gonna be a hectic week this week, Since i'll be working 5 continuous day.
Thanks to abby [My Lady Boss] message @ 10am this morning telling me whether i noe i gotta work today, after that i couldnt get back to sleep anymore. She is such an Early Bird.
Worked with Cecilia, time passes kinda fast today. Got photographer came to shoot our shop clothes @ ard 7pm. Gosh, Wads nice about Our clothes! Anyway the model isnt pretty. There's sumthing wrong with the fashion consultant taste. I cant say my taste of clothes is good, But hers is realli awful!
Anyway i met Johnathan [1 of Jack Vic's clique] this afternoon while getting my lunch over @ cineleisure.

Angie: Life still goes on, Let go if u are too tired to even hold on. If u think u lose due to looks, all i can say is there are always ppl who are definitely good looking den u. But that doesnt mean u lose. What matter most is do u enjoy being the angie u are now? personality is the MAIN point.

Shall stopped here.
Results out. But the whole system JAMMED !!!

2005-05-02T15:07:00.001+08:00

Will be working for 5 Straight Days & abby tell me its okie.
Life simply starts to Change.

Its my Grandma's death anniversary today.
Dad drove mum & I to "Hui Guan" for offerings.
Aunt, Uncle & cousins more or less were all present.

2005-04-29T17:04:00.001+08:00

It's an off day for me today.
Esther give me a call, following my boss, Abby instruction asking me if i could get back to work as soon as possible becz MELVINA claim that she is not feeling well. When i waiting for BUs 222, Esther give me a call again, telling me i can make i U-turn back HOME! BECZ that Melvina CAN WORK LE. So fake lor, wth lor, I feel so used. ArGHhHhHh!

Anyway my brother is off to Brunei last night.
Send him off after my work.
Alrite nothing to say liao
HOLIDAY realli NOT THAT GOOD.
hahaha

2005-04-26T16:52:00.003+08:00

Saturday
Meet up with Esther, KaiLin, Sue, Shirley & SiewChin for a swim over @ My SeatMate a.k.a sIew Chin's Apartment. Had so much fun & laughter, It've been a long time eversince i can realli take a deep breath & luff my heart out. Though the rest couldnt make it, but i stil enjoy lots.
Anyway Photos up, grab the photos from photo gallery under link alrite?
Had so much FUn On Saturday!

Monday
WORKING @ Heeren with Shiyun. Nice catching up with her after a long time.

Tuesday
Meet up with Sue, Esther, MeiJin & ChiuMian back to SAC for the Imperial Noodle! Catch up with Miss Chua too. So fun, KaiLin OVERSLEPT!!! Diao~ hehe! Went back & students looking @ us like Aliens. Hey COME on lor, WE WERE ONCE FROM THAT SCHOOL *Grinz*.

Alrite shall stop here le.
Got driving tomorrow. EMERGENCY BRAKE!
Might be meeting Aiwei, Joyce & Mary tommorrow.

2005-04-18T23:34:00.001+08:00

Went back to work yesterday.
It was so tiring.
The journey goes like this .. from Somerset mrt to heeran, to cineleisure, back to heeran, to fareast, to ck tangs & all thanks to my cute friend Esther, i m back to fareast and then back to heeran. Well i can say i spent most time on WALKING. HeHEe~
Anyway while working i saw FIONA XIE. Gosh she is so pretty lor!
Went home by bus with my collegue.
Home Sweet Home.

SUPPOSED to go Dennis house this morning.
And thanks to LIANG REN HAO of his morning Singtel Alarm, i cant get back to sleep.
Went to get a hair cut (Which i looks so TOOT in it) & had my lunch with mama.
Called renhao, called dennis & called Kat NOBODY PICKED up my CALL! GoSH~
Lucky Kat msg me telling me she overslept, so she wont be going.
HahA~ actualli i kinda lazy to go. LOL! OOoOoPSsSss
Anyway meet my darling Aiwei to bugis. Supposedly she pei me buy jeans, ended up she getting more things than i do! LOL~ felt so guilty. She broke her words of not shopping for 2 mths. Well she still cant stand the temptation! *Grinz*
Had so much fun with her. Ask Joyce along, but she gotta school, as for mary i think she is working too. Busy girl~ hehe!
Den back home once again.

sTOP here, got DRIVING TOMOLO.
Learning how to make a U-turn! So CoOl rIGHT?
I hope to get it done once and for all during this holiday.

2005-04-15T15:16:00.001+08:00

Exams Finally over~
Got 1 an a half months of Holiday! Have been waiting for this day for SO LONG!!!
Yesterday was my LAst Paper which is Mathematics! Flung for sure~
Gosh the paper is just so TOUGH!! AwWw mAn~
Anyway It's OVER!!!
Went to bugis with some of my friends after the paper.
And then back home, thought of changing my blog skins since i'm so free.
Got it done & went to sleep.
Woke up @ 1pm this afternoon. Dread to wake up as usual.
Mum keeps nagging asking me to clear up the mess in my HOUSE! Cz every corner is occupied with Ma THINGS! WaHhAhAhAhaH~

Anyway i'll be working at heeran this Sunday! YiPpIE~ I've got a job. But hopefully is not a day or 2 tingy. I hope it is a MONTH & HALF thingy!

Alrite shall get back to my CLEANING.
I was just take a "short REST".
i M such a lazy Bum!

Note out for Clique frm SAC => Hey gErs wanna gather out this coming week on any weekdays at siew chin's house? It'll be a Swimming gathering! If u guys wan it Let mE NoE!! oKie? Muack!

Note out for friends in NYP => Guys exams over, Lets Chill out someday! Anywhere but not HOME! Let get some Life~ GYM perhaps? hehe!

Note out for Aiwei, Joyce & Mary => Beloved 3, wanna meet up someday? but i cant make it for Sentosa this Sunday, gotta work. No work means no Money = No money means No Shopping! **Grinz**

Seeya guys real SoOn!
Dun miss me too much! HeHe
tHOUGH i noe the misses is irresistable ~ WoOoHoOoO

2005-03-27T11:13:00.001+08:00

Blogging time.
Monday - French oral presentation => Lecturer Attitude, Repeat our conversation twice => Dead!

Tuesday - Communication skills formal wear presentation => Nervous like hell ... Badly performed.

Wednesday - Had my Electronics Fundamental paper => Dead!

Saturday - Celebrating EsSStHheErRR B'day. MeET up @ BI, 3pm. But pathetically left Meijin & I waiting for Esther. So we went to get Esther's b'day pressie, Due to time constraint. We didnt manage to get it before hand. Cz everyone is So Busy. Bought her a necklace from Taka Jewellery. After meeting Esther, we went down town to meet up with mich, KaiLin, Eunice & her dear. We practically spend most of our time wAITING. But nvm, we kinda tok alot. After having everyone gather together, down we go to heeran to take Pictures! den to CineLeisure to have our dinner @ Mestro. The place just SUX! but the manager is kinda nice. The food is bad! i ordered Prawn Marinara. It turned out to be SHrIMP marinara. Diao! Is just so Pathetic lor.
Bought a cake for Esther. But she gotta go for awhile to meet up with Kai. We were like waiting & praying so hard that she will return. When we ask for bill, decided to take away the cake & not the ice cream, everyone kinda disappointed. Until KaiLin told me, Esther is BACK! I went to tell that in-charge saying that everything goes back with the plan.
He nearly packed up le lor. Thank god.
Esther Upon seeing the Cake, she was touched => As Usual .. OoPs hAhA!
Our usual, we sang b'day song as loud as we could. Some will say so MALu, but i think we are proud doing that lor.
OH I LEFT OUT ONE MORE THING!!! when we went to heeran to take pictures. There is this guy TOOK our 1 dollar & NV RETURN. STILL DARE TO DENY. we CURSE & SWEAR~ Is the matter of PRINCIPLE lor! Argh Such a small man.
NVm ... then we wanted to play pool! Congrats .. no Space. Still must Queue. Sian! haha!
So dismiss after that.

That's all .. TOMOLO I GOT FRENCH TEST LOR! ARGH@!!!
Exams coming !!! DIAOZ!

2005-02-26T21:16:00.001+08:00

Back Once again~
For the sake of my Beloved Cousin ... I sHaLL UpdaTE my BloggiE!
BaD news for today:" My dad's close buddy had passed away early this morning".
SaD cASE .. But life is not wad u pave for urself .. everything is destined.

Few days back have my Mulitmedia Computering and maths Common test.
Everything sux. Badly done! Okie lah .. to be honest i slack alot didnt realli study.
Maths paper => all the questions are EXACTLY the same as the Worksheet. Damn!
I tried doing the worksheets over and over again. BUT when i sit for the paper, i starts to write nonsense! Gosh~ Badly Done~
Anyway ...
Whatever ..

Angie Tan MeiJin => CAN u kindly please remove the password for ur blog~ I CANT get ur PASSWORD right~ is so ARGH lor !! LOL~
Actually dun realli have much to blog lah ...
Nothing "HAPpening" realli happened. Except for my common test. Which aint realli that Interesting nor Happening. *gRinZ*

O'level results releasing on Monday.
Excited? Anxious? Worried? Dun have to ... Because it has nothing gotta do with me.
I just wanna get out of the shit-tiest education schemes!
ArgH~!!
Shir aka FishBall and Alicia => All the best to ya.

Alrite thou shall stop here~
To Be ConTinued ... ... ...

2005-02-11T09:26:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year to Everyone!
Seems like there is alot to blog, but kinda lazy. HahA~

New Year Eve
Went back to SAC with my clique of friends. MeET Lots of teacher BUT still didnt manage to say Hi to Sr Jo & Karen Teo! Well Miss Chua is still the Sweetest.
At nite my family had our reunion dinner cum celebrating my mama's b'day.

New Year Day 1
Went to all my grandpaS & grandma house. Meet up with lots of relatives. All changes le & i'm getting older.

New Year Day 2
Went to My relatives house again & last destination we stopped at my aunt's house. PLayed black jack again & i won $18. haha~ So heng lor.
nOTHING much happened on Day 2.

New Year Day 3 <-- Today
More like planning rather than happened already. hehe~

Suppose to go to my aunt's house in the morning But my relatives say they wanna come my house. So no where to go

That's all i guess.
hAVEN been touching my BOOKs! Gosh~
Common Tests coming in 2 weeks time!!! HahA~
Congrats to me!

To be Continued ... ...

2005-01-19T13:40:00.001+08:00

Once again in school doing my Digital Media & Design.
Learning Flash, animation & stuffs. Everything just seems so tough.
Had my Maths lesson just now, 2 full hours! While i ended up not absorbing anything.
Anyway had long hours of break yesterday.
So i went to play basketball with my classmates for 4 full hours!
Damn tired. Waited in school till 7pm for my Life-saving.
To take my Life-saving 1,2 & 3 certificate from Jimmy.
Then on the other hand i swam too! So Exhausted.
Anyway my journey way hope sux! Waited half an hour for each bus, 72 & 87.
So irritated. Anyway tons of homework and project left undone.
Have no idea how am i going to hand in my work on time!
argh!

Supposed to meet Mary, Joyce & Aiwei today @ 5pm.
But last minute i receive a msg saying Joyce can only make it @ 7pm.
But i cant. I got only abt an hour to spare!
I got Work to do & Common test is Right after Chinese Year that week!
Oh goSh. But time is just so little to even spare for free time lor.
Yah so please pardon me. Thank you.

My life hafnt be good.
Alrite ...
going back to do my flash le.

2004-12-15T22:35:00.001+08:00

This morning i went for a Swim @ Bedok Swimming Complex.
Then i make my way down Expo, to return my uniform to 1 of my collegues.
As usual, it is so boring over there. Thank god i left soon enough.
Then i went home for lunch & i ate DuRiAn~ WoAh YuMmY yUm YuM!

2004-12-14T13:26:00.001+08:00

Had my class BBQ yesterday @ Pasir Ris Park.
When we first reached there, It was like so windy & we took a Shelter.
Then when Samantha, her bf , Samuel & Yichuan had arrived with FOODS.
Den we proceed to the pit.
The wind is just so strong that once my umbrella being blown out of shape.
haha~ Nevermind, then as usual Samantha & I together with the guys went to the BBALL court & PLay. Practically the 2 of us gotta do everything as we are the only 2 gers. Captain, choose team people. haha~ But nevertheless it was still so FUN!
Clement was bad, terrible day for him. HahA~ Being make fun till he flare up & got angry.
Poor chap. But he practically keep eating non-stop, without helping. Wad a GUy~ but NVM.
We went back to the pit as the girls already started BBQing.
I didnt have much as i am still SICK.
George Tan, our God-Father didnt mange to make it as his daddy admit to Hospital.
Kinda sad isnt it? hai~ I pray to god, hope u could watch over george tan in his top condition in order to take care of his daddy & himself too. And most important of all, is his daddy! thank you god.
We played, we talked, we bickered [esp towards RenHao & Samuel]. haha Dee Siao KING haha!
I realli enjoyed after 2 weeks of working. This seems like HEAVEN to me.
Yeah, sch is starting in real soon time. Gotta buck up once again! argh~
Alrite shall stop here ...

2004-12-09T18:27:00.000+08:00

Supposed to work today, but thanks to my BLUR collegue. He went down on behalf of me.
He supposed to have his OFF day today!
Nevermind, anyway i aint looking forward to work.
Took my Basic Theory test yesterday. Gotta wait for 10 days cz it was handwritten.
Computer down. Met Emily Ho there [the dancer that use to be in our class].
Met PeiJia as usual after my driving. She said she drove past me! But i didnt notice her @ all.
Anyway the next driving lesson I'll be driving on the road! hehe~
My instructor ask me to drive in the 'S' & 'Crank' course today! But i aint suppose to do that yet.
hAhA~ But i still make it thru' confidently.
A lady called me this morning asking me to collect my watch, Cz the stock arrived le.
Went Town to Collect my Baby-G & i ended up shouting @ the Auntie.
Saw MeiJin at Bedok, she's down on a flu. So poorthing [You better take care alrite].
Bedok interchange Selling me the Watch @ $155, whereas this SHOP SOLD IT @ $178.
When i reached there, the Auntie told me that THE STOCK HAVE NOT COME!
I got so Pissed off & I asked for my deposit money back.
She said the Stock will arrive 1/2 an hour ltr. She got the Cheek to ask me WAIT.
She said she will give me a call when the stock come.
Nevermind i waited for 45minutes, i walked back to the shop the stock come le BUT I WASNT INFORMED. Realli Pissed lor.
I was carrying my fever, feeling so cold all the way down town for all this NONSENSE?
And i asked her got DISCOUNT MAH cz bedok selling me @ $155 but bedok cannot reserve the watches.
Damn she told me the watch INCREASE TO $188 & she sells me $10 CHEAPER.
I was like *beep* lor.
I shouted @ her saying i come all the way down from bedok just to get this stupid watch & i have to wait 45minutes more than other customers who have reserved & the treatment she is telling me IS THE SAME!
I seen the watch & i thot is everything sliver in colour BUT ended up got SHINY SHINY de!
I told her i dun like it .. can i get back the money & SHE SAID NO!
I was like fark lor (pardoned me), I got so engrossed when i mention this INCIDENT.
She deliberately just wanting to eat my MONEY.
Fine, She is so violent towards my WATCH, bang here bang there.
I ask for a new one & KNOW WAD? SHE SAY NO.
She just SUX LOR. DUN ever go to "ALL WATCHES" @ Wisma & Lucky Plaza! They are CHEATERS!
And SHE SHOW ME ATTITUDE cz i show her.
DIdnt she hear before "CUSTOMERS ARE ALWAYS RIGHT".
Just feel like SKINNING her ALIVE!
That auntie offended my boy the previous time when he tried to get the deposit back.
Nevermind I help u REVENGE le.
I just SCREW her up totally, that she is fuming inside her!
The feeling is so shiok but the Money i GAVE to CHEATERS just makes my ♥ ache.
She cause MY FEVER back again!!

Alrite, enough of complaining.
Thou shall stop here.

2004-12-08T23:51:00.001+08:00

Oh well ... I AM SICK !!!
Fever, Cough, feeling Giddy & REAL COLD!
Temperature went up to 39 degree.
Gotta observe my temperature for 3 to 4 days.
If fever still not getting better .. den gotta go back to the polyclinic.
Suspected of having Dengue Fever.
DaMn!! Wont be so sway ba.

Met KaiLin over there. She cut her hair & went to eat Seoul garden !!!
With ANDY !!!
haha~

Alrite shall stop here ...
I'M SHIVERING LIKE HELL!!
Wearing 3 clothes & 1 jacket oso no use!!! argh
Expo there is even colder. I think i will just faint there.
Anyway i nearly faint that day after work.
Thank god got 1 aunt lend me a helping hand.
There are still kind souls around.

Anyway thank guys for ur concern
Gotta work for 4 more days & everything will be over.

2004-11-26T23:39:00.001+08:00

Got back my results.
Realli got stunned in my entire life.
i got 4 A & 2 C.
My parents were so happy!
Thank god i didnt disappoint them.

Today is the grand opening of my work @ Singapore Expo.
Supposed to work @ 12pm. Becoz is the grand opening, i'll be working @ 10am instead.
Tiring day.
My mama & my aunt came to visit me @ ma workplace.
Went for dinner with them @ bedok interchange.
And now ...
Home Sweet Home
Working tomolo again

I wont be going to the Class gathering on 28th, this coming sunday (for my NYP friends & SAC friends) as i'll be working @ the sickening boring place.
Guess wad? for the whole of 11hours, altogether for the sales, We only sell 9tops & 1 pants. Pathetic lor.

Stop here then

2004-11-19T16:14:00.001+08:00

Went back school for gym with Samuel & Samantha.
I wasnt that late today. HeHe~
Tomolo going Pulau Ubin with them again to cycle.
But not all of them are able to make it.
Meeting up Joyce, Mary & Nat later on @ 10.30pm.

2004-11-17T19:18:00.000+08:00

Alrite down with my 2nd driving practical!
It's just so FUN! The instructor sitting right beside me is just so Cute!
Malay Chap, just so easy going. HeHe~
He actually asked me to speed up in the circuit!
He says abt other drivers being a Slow Coach. Cute Rite? hehe~

Anyway went out with Samantha, Samuel, YiChuan, Dennis, Dennis's friend & Clement.
To catch a movie ==> TAXI
That show is simply so great! have been laughing throughout! GoSh! haha
It've been a long time eversince i realli Laugh Out Loud.
Is abt this dumb driver cum cop & this lady taxi driver who modify her own taxi into a racer car! haha~ But sad to say, not everyone join us & all seems to be moodless. Especially Our Samuel.
Yesterday was the Final episode bout The Champion! The ending is sumthing which i'm not expecting between the triangle love of KaiWei, JingWen & YiXuan. Though the ending is kaiwei & jingwen together, but u kinda must guess it. hehe

Alrite stop here for the day.

2004-11-13T09:49:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was a hectic day.
I reached school at 4pm sharp
Have been soaking in that pool for 7 hours!!
The whole exam ends @ about 11pm.
Throughout the whole exam, i was like freaking out.
When throwing the rope, i didnt manage to reach my victim @ the 1st attempt.
So @ the end of the exam gotta do once more, in order to pass.
And thank god. I make it thru'.
There were 2 examiners. 1 Jason (young chap, use to be NYP life-guard too), the other is a old man. The old man is like so ArGhhHhhH! He scold ppl stupid Lor & he keep saying "Shit Man". Acting Punk or wad? I hate him!
And for my very own instructor, he didnt teach me 1 recovery position! & he expect me to get it correct!!! damn it.. Argh~ So angry with him lor. Wad he taught mostly were corrected by the old man as he is from the life-guard association or something. This shows that my instructor aint that perfect afterall !! ArGHhHhHh.
Anyway after the long hours, everyone were like dying to get outta the pool a.s.a.p.
It've been a strenous day for everyone.
After the whole thing, Alvin was reprimanded my the young examiner & by my instructor for his attitude!

Finally
HOME SWEET HOME

2004-11-11T17:27:00.001+08:00

Had my 1st circuit driving yesterday! Everything was so fun BUT at the same time Woah~
LOL~ i think the instructor of mine somehow afraid to sit beside me. Shock him thru'out the 100minutes. After my driving, i took a cab down to school. As i was already late for my life-saving lesson which is supposed to start @ 5pm. Tommorrow will be my life-saving test le~ Feeling so scare & nervous.
Went Bedok Swimming Complex today with my brother for sun-tanning session.
Pool not as filthy as it was on Saturday. Rather little people.
Life is simply so bored! Today is Deepavali & guess wad ...
I'm @ Home ROTTING~ argh!
I wanna get outta this house~

Alrite i dunno wad to say le
shall stop here once again

2004-11-09T22:57:00.000+08:00

Went for my Basic Theory Lesson yesterday & today.
And guess who i met ... ... PEIJIA!
World is so small, i dunno if i shld count myself "Lucky" or wad. Of all people, her!
She was wearing those home T-Shirt & short. And i've got no idea why is she explaining to me bout her attire! She said she intended to wear like how she does when she go sch. But having the thoughts that the driving sch was just nearby, she dropped the idea of dressing herself up.
And for today, she dressed herself up. Somehow wanting to show me she is PrettY~
A shirt, a skirt, a pair those doll shoe & HER CONTACT LENSE.
She nv fail to ask me the same old question every time she saw me.
She start asking:"hey u still not wearing CONTACTS ar? U go school go wear spects?"
*diao* wad is there to hao lian~ I realli got no idea.
Then i will always answer her:"Is it an offence wearing spects to sch?"
Yeah and of cz, she will say abt her boy & her sun tanning in her bikini @ Sentosa.
Saying her boy is nice to her & Stuffs.
Is there any other things she can boast abt with?? *diao*
Please do take a look at her friendster pic, as she asked me to.
With 1 of her shoulder bear & she state, Sexy her~ or something.
Pengz~
Anyway
i'm having my 1st circuit driving tomolo. Beri nervous, from 4.25-6.05.
Got life-saving @ 5pm. HOW TO RUSH DOWN.
Take cab so cannot reach on time. But die die oso must go.
This coming Friday is my life-saving exam!! Shit~
Hai, didnt plan well before booking my practical.
Kinda feel guilty towards my instructor, Jimmy.
He said to me:"I realli dunno wad to say le." when i told me bout my practical tomolo.
*Sigh*

Siew Chin: Nobody reply me!! LOL~ u sick ar? take good care wor!

Alrite think shall stop here..
Bye

2004-11-06T16:59:00.001+08:00

Can u imagine that Life is getting Bored & DuLL!
Woke up @ abt 12pm today.
Upon seeing the weather is so good, with glaring sunlight.
First thought that came across my mind is ... Swimming.
Went abt asking my friends if they wan to swim, but none can make it.
Dun wanna miss it, so i went to Bedok Swimming Complex myself.
When i reached there, There's no SUNLIGHT! gOsH!
And there are so many people! Thought of making a U-turn back home.
But since i'm right there, why dun i go for a swim. HeHe~
tHE wATER IS SO FOGGY LOR! YuCkS!
Hai~@! Walked back home after that.
So sad!

Alrite shall stop here .

2004-11-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

It've been 2 days of my holiday & i'm dying soon!
It's so Borin! God~ Argh! Rotting at home.
Anyway went with my mama this morning to enrol into the driving sch.
Now that i'm going for my driving, i seems to be worried.
So afraid that i wont be able to pass *Sigh*
Shall take a step at a time. HeHe~
Slack whole bloody day @ HOME !!!
Can u Imagine ME staying put @ HOME!!!!???!!!
This is NUTz ... Argh !!
Have been switching on & shutting my com for a couple of times.
Is realli bored at home.
Out there is Pouring. It's hard to get my foot out that door of mine.
*Sigh*
Going Sentosa with my friends tomolo.
Wonder will it rain with the weather nowadays.
*ThInKiNg hArD*

anYwAy friends on mine from SAC :
Are u all going for the potluck thingy @ Changi Beach on 28th Nov? The whole class is going i guess. Even the Hello Kitty gang. OoPs .. hAhA Should be S.H.E gang now. LOL~

Oh and .. this coming monday [8thNov] Siew Chin & I planned of going to a swim @ her place in the afternoon .. So those who wanna go, do let me noe alrite?
Time for us to gather! HeHe

Alrite Shall stop here le
Continue Lazing around my house.
Is realli
BORED!!! BORED!!! BORED!!!
I'm going CRAZY!!

2004-11-02T20:54:00.000+08:00

Finally the exams are over!!!!
*Phew*
Is maths today! think lots of careless mistakes & the paper seems to be tough.
As i have said, which paper is easy for me.
Anyway after the paper, Went down Orchard with ... ...
Kat, Angeline, Shuting, Renhao, Yichuan, DEnnis, Samuel, Anthony & Clement.
Catch a movie => The DoLL Master.
It was like so scary lor! scare the hell outta my life.. damn.
Kept screaming!!!
God! Dun even dare to come home~
Anyway nice movie afterall.
Rather Eerie, Went Heeren after that.
Passed by ZOOM which is called am.pm now. Abby and Shiyun was there.
So happy to see Shiyun & not abby. of cz. haha
She told me esther was suppose to work today. But sad to say abby couldnt make it ytd. so they swap. Esther & I got no fate ar. haha!
Alrite gotta stop here

My show starts le ..
Must support channel 8 ... 9pm..
ren wo ao you!!!

2004-10-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

One more paper to go & everything is over for this semester!
But the last paper is Discrete Mathematics.
2 common tests & 2 exams down.
Knew gonna flung everything with flying colours.
Damn~
Dun wanna take Sup papers.
Thinking about exam just makes me sick!
I wanna Swim! I've not swim for weeks!
Argh~
Most of my friends in other Poly are having their Holidays!
KaiLin & I are the only one who have not finished our exams.
*Sigh*
I went into the wrong Zone yesterday for my Data Comm paper.
Quite blur~ Rush out of house just to be early for this once. But ended up not knowing which zone my paper is going to be held at & which seat i'm taking. LOL~
So Paiseh !
Have been eating MacDonald's Mc Furry Cappucino almost everyday.
Somehow get aDDicted. This exams Makes me grow fatter!
Snacks while studying. Terrible isnt it, haha~
As usual can study. Only noe how to play, eat & sleep!
On Friday i slept @ 1am. Woke up @ 6.30am just to study for the afternoon paper which is Data Comm. So afraid that i would forget everything. Nearly doze off in examination hall. Thought the paper i will be able to manage ... BUT ... now i doubt so.
Before the paper, i still pray lor.
Think i'm missing those days in SAC whereby b4 every exams the teachers will pray together with us, just to calm us down, relax our mind & so on.
Guess now life in NYP gotta pray ALONE! hahaha~
It's a KILLER paper lor.
Anyway which paper is not hard for me. haha~
Lets pray that i'll make my way thru' without taking any sup papers.
Alrite shall stop here~
Will update AFTER MY EXAMS.
By that time we can Rock & Roll
hEhE! gO Take my driving license!! HeHe!

I'll Be back !!

2004-10-20T11:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday after my school, I went to look for my boy.
As we have a badminton play @ 4.00pm.
Played with both of his younger and elder sister.
Rather fun, as usual laughing throughout. LOL~
Till about 6.15pm, we left the sports hall.
During the game, Jossie & Elaine came down & pass me my present.
Thanks for coming all the way down & back to parkway to pass Sin Hwee hers.

Meeting my classmates today @ Raffles to study for tomolo's common test.
*Sigh*
And all the way up to 2 November, i'll be having my EXAMS!
Damn. Then on 10 November i've my life-saving Exam!!
Argh.
After my exam will be my boy's exam le.
Wondering how much longer are we supposed to wait till everything is over & we can enjoy ourselves. Continue wad couples always do, Shopping, Sports, etc. haha
He received his enlistment to NS letter YESTERDAY! on the 8th January!
So Fast! Oh my GoOdNeSS!
*Sigh*
Still hoping will have lots of time with him before his NS.
God knows, is just 1 mth+ to spend with him before he's being tied down by NS.
Gonna miss him so much.
I give u my words, i'LL wait for u till u finished serving ur NS.
No one knows wad will happened. Maybe in the end, we wont be together.
Everything is unpredictable.
But for as long as i'm with u, i'LL wait!
We still got lots of of things left undone.
HeHe~

Alright late le.
Gotta Go~
Before they Kills Me!
HeHe

2004-10-13T18:43:00.001+08:00

No more Projects, No more pratical test for Data Communication.
But my exams are coming.
Today is my birthday! HehE

my lovely friends [Poly] celebrate my b'dae too.
So sweet of them. Samantha bake Oreo CheeseCake! Oh man~ It's nice!
RenHao, Samuel, Anthony & Clement bought me PrezzieS! Thanks~ It is Lovely!
The rest chip in $$$ with the cakie~ Thanks friends, u guys make my b'dae.
After school, went to meet my mama for dinner.
We went Novena, Hans to have our black pepper steak.
Do some shopping, mum bought me a shoe~
They are just so loving!
My brother & 1 of his friend bought me a Mango Jacket. So sweet isnt it? But too bad he's in tekong now~ Stuck with his field camp. So sad =(

Thanks those friends who sent me their greetings~ U guys are so sweet! thanks!

I got a BEst 18th Birthday =)
With so much Love ("v")
Especially from my mama
*gRinz*

2004-10-08T19:38:00.000+08:00

Finally done with all my projects.
It've been a hell outta my life with all those Projects Stacking up!
Exams coming, but i think i need a good sleep.
Just to finish up my projects. I slept at 6am this morning~
woke up at 10-30am for school.
Very tired. Dying .. or should i say *Dead*
HaHa~
Have been staying up late at night to do my projects.
But all thanks to my friends who have been helping me out.
Else i dunno when will i be able to finish it.
Had My life saving lesson yesteday.
Saving people without an aid.
Matthew became my victim! LOL
Cause Natalie didnt attend lesson again.
Then after reaching home, gotta rush on my projects.
Indeed tiring *Sigh*

Met KaiLin in the school mac ytd. HeHe
sO sweet to see her around in school.

Alrite shall stop here

2004-10-03T10:51:00.000+08:00

Today is Stephanie Poon Birthday~ Happy 18th Birthday girl.
Legal age of doing anithing & that include Clubbing! HahA.

My Golf html project dateline is this coming Friday!
Oh Dear, what am i still doing?? Blogging! LOL
Seems to have lots of imcomplete work. Damn~
Doesnt matter, "boat reach the shore, will be Straight automatically".

Meijin tinks tat i didnt blog much bout HER. She gets jealous seeing me blogging much on my boy. HaHa~ So rewind back on 28th September, Lantern Festival.
Upon seeing my old friends at Pasir Ris, makes me so Happy.
Probably It've been a long time eversince i last meet up with them. All changes!
Sue as usual de lah, crazy crazy de.
Ah poon slim down & her complexion still as good as before, smooth smooth one.
Esther is Still a Hot babe BUT she is not available to guys out there *GrInZ*.
Eunice becum more ger le, with NICE long hair <-- see told u last time grow ur hair! still say wanna cut. Cut somemore lah. HaHa
Lorraine dwellin into some sad past, makes her not to be her usual self BUT she got over it le. So we'll see her to be herself once again, Tigeress *OoPs* haha
Shirley my Lao Po~ She GOT SUITORS! betray my love 4 her. Oh nO~ But i'm happy 4 her. Jus afraid she gets cheated. But nvm Raine will be there on behalf of me, to supervise TAT GUy! haha
KaiLin getting lamer & lamer as days past. haha
Eileen Still the same, Cool Cool de. Dun wanna tok much!
& MEIJIN!!! She is still as b4 38 38 de. Much prettier *cross finger* OoPs Haha. Cut her hair makes her look more refreshing. Wif her D.I.Y green poker dots finger nails -> shows she's as vein lk last time. haha~ She got Tama, wasted nv let our tama make frien. If the next time we meet up again, my tama dunno re-birth how many times le. haha
Meijin statisfy? hahaha Shouldnt had write abt u.

Dennis did mention, i didnt write abt him too. So here it goes.
A guy always in a baggy dressing with a cap on, good in drawing & loves Bball alot. Who looks strong in the outer appearance But right down in him, there exist a fragile heart. Waiting patiently for his dream girl, hoping that miracle might happen on him. A chance would be given to him. I believe he didnt hope or pray for much, as looking at her from far is good enough. In the dark trying all ways to help her when she is feeling down, Dun mind being a clown as long as she's happy. I wont say u would have a chance but instead i'll say to u that ur sincerity will touch her 1 day. Take care guy~ See ya in sch

2004-09-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

Well, dont really have much to blog.
Rushing for My Projects. HeHe~ aLL thanks to Last Minute Rush!
Feeling the Sudden breeze, finally freaking me out.
DateLine coming soon, Feeling sCaRe ... HahA~

Down on Flu, cough & My eye still hurt!
Hearing from my mama & my boy, they claim it was due to Heatiness.
They seems to be like a doctor. Unlicense Doctor i mean .. OoPs HAhA.
Lantern Festival coming in like 2 days time?
HeHe~ Every year, i seems to end up playing with MeiJin~
What bout this year? I doubt so .. Everyone is just So Busy! Hehe
Miss the day when MeiJin, EeLing & her Handsome brother joined us for candles play.
So fun, MeiJin & I couldnt take our eyes off EeLing's Brother. HAhA! OoPs
MeiJin, i Didnt mean to leak out our SecRet! LOL~
LaLaLaLa
Life is just so DuLL~
Alrite
Nothing much to blog le ..
Shall stop here.

*Thanks guys who left ur sweet messages in my Taggy~ Thanks for ur concern, I truely appreciate it. Must take care alrite? MiSs ya*

2004-09-23T11:11:00.000+08:00

My eye Hurts! There is either Something growing inside my eye or something left in my eye!
I hate eye more! Hai~@!
Recently i'm down on my luck.
Life just aint good for me.

Now is week 12, another 2 more weeks gotta hand up my ironic projects.
Both also Started doing le, but 1 just cant get the result.
The other dun seems to touch on it anymore. HAHa~
How can i hand in on time!!! BIg Problem !!
Furthermore my eyes HURT. cant even see bright stuff!!
com screen .. must adjust to dull color contrast!
ARgh ..
Got life saving tonight.. No idea if i could swim!
With the condition of my eye. Damn~
Hai~ Last week they were taught wad breathing stuff.
Shit ... i miss it! hai ..
anyway i stop here le ..
*PomPOm* time ..
if not late for class le..
see ya

2004-09-19T11:49:00.000+08:00

Someone send this to me & i find it very sad.
So, i shall share it. HeHe
Here it goes ...
+_+:..u_broke_my_hart_into_pieces..:+_+ +_+:..tearing_me_apart..:+_+ +_+:..slam_mi_hard_on_e_floor_once_agn..:+_+ +_+:..u_broke_my_trust..:+_+ +_+:..everytink_turns_out_2_b_lies_&_empty_promises..:+_+ +_+:..y_do_u_haf_2_not_mean_wat_u_haf_said_&_promised..:+_+ +_+:..u_left_mi_all_alone_in_pain_n_loneliness..:+_+ +_+:..e_tinks_u_once_said_kip_running_thru_my_mind..:+_+ +_+:..wif_flashback_of_memories_u_left_behind..:+_+ +_+:..sleepless_nights_n_i_miz_u_so..:+_+ +_+:..cried_myself_2_sleep..:+_+ +_+:..it_hurts_so_badly_i_may_not_b_able_2_stand_agn..:+_+ +_+:..my_hart_is_bleeding_everytink's_dead..:+_+ +_+:..no_one_else_could_ever_take_your_place..:+_+ +_+:..i_still_lurve_u_deeply..:+_+ +_+:..nth's_gonna_change_e_fact..:+_+ +_+:..even_if_it_takes_eternity_..:+_+ +_+:..i'll_still_wait_4_miracles_2_happen..:+_+ +_+:..i_wish_i'll_never_wake_up_from_a_deep_sleep..:+_+
.:.//.\\.//.\\..:....:..//.\\.//.\\.:.

So how was it? Feel like crying? LOL~
Anyway, i'm struggling with my maths!
*Sigh*

2004-09-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

I'm Finally it's a Friday. I wish my weekends could slow down alittle!
24hours a day is not enough! Human are just so greedy.
They can Never be statisfy with what they are given.
LEarnt Javascript today. It simply suX. I got no idea wad the lecturer is toking abt!
Another die flat module *Sigh* Should just stopped Studying! aRGh Hate Books!
Thot of doing research for my golf project & abt to start with it, Anthony called.
Have been talking over the phone for the past 2 hours! All about Clement.
This guy [Clement] just have so much things to tok about.
*Sigh* Tired le didnt do any research, Turning in soon.
How to get my project done on time??? Can anyone tell me??
ArGhHhH .. This Semestral just so rush!
Week 16 is all my Common testS or rather ExamS.
What is school all about? TestS, ExamS & ProjectS? Bored, No Life! HaHa~
I have NO time management! arghHh. I'm still like before, slack as usual.
Why cant i just get on task. Get everything done once & for all?
Enough of nonsense ... Life just aint good!
I need a good swim~ Relieve "stress". HaHa
/*Self declaration*/
int Steph_Is_Such_A_Lazy_Bum;
*gRiNs*
Alrite, Thou shall stopped here. Time to Sleep!

2004-09-16T21:41:00.000+08:00

Got back my Common Test results.
Got C for both. Aint good enough, rather disappointed.
But rather statisfy to get a C for C pRogramming.
Expected a fail from the start.
For discrete math, learning AP & GP now.
*Sigh* this is a Killer Topic! I'm struggling.
Dead for sure.

Played badminton with my classmates today.
I didnt attend life-saving today, Rather sad.
All thanks to my mense, arghHhH.
Wondering wad they learn today ("_"?)
Life aint getting good for me.
This world is just so ugly!
Hai~@!

Hey guys, thanks for ur concern.
Miss those days real much!

2004-09-11T21:44:00.000+08:00

Holidays is ending in another day time.
New Topics will be taught & of cz homework!
*Sigh* Simply the thought of travelling makes me sick.
But what to do, there is no turning back.
This is my life, isnt it?
Whatever, i'm not getting on task.
My projects are left untouched.
Wonder if i can hand it up on time *Penny of thoughts*
Missing those days back then.
As the days now can never be compared to then.
*sigh, Let the unsaid left unsaid (0_0)*
My brother is back from back again.
Sometimes it just aint a good thing to have him back home.
How i wish he can be kept in the camp longer OoPs .. hAhA~
YupZ~
I cant Stopped myself from Slacking !! ArGh ... ...
I'm just like before, Oh DeAr~ It aint a good sign.
Anyway went for a jog @ home in the afternoon just now.
I'm growing fatter, YuCkS! The thot of it makes me *Puke*
There is so much to worry ("o") Including those which are not neccessary.
No wonder my Life is so Complicated. HaHa~
Alrite shall end here again
Goodbye *MuAck*

2004-09-02T23:03:00.000+08:00

Time Flies, it've been 3weeks & my brother is coming back tml.
Anyway, went back to St. Anthony on 31st September 04.
Partly to take my O'LeveL cert & to see the teachers.
They are still the same, except that everything is just so different without Mr Quah.
Met Miss Chua, she is very fine. With all those 60s earrings, bangles on her.
For Linda Teo, still the same so confident. Telling me she looks pretty in her outfit!
But indeed ... she looks great! haha
Sister Jo, put our aeroplane. Miss yeong [maths teacher] carrying a 7mths baby boy.
The rest of the teachers whom i've not mention are doing great too, So no worries.
Finally meet up with Shir Siow, she grew taller! but still beri cute, my fishball. hehe~

5 more days to my first common test! So Scary.
Haven been studying during the study break. Still slacking *sigh*
Meet up with 1 of my classmate today to get our C Programming project started.
Being stucked for hours just for that particular part.
Have Life-Saving @ 5pm. Lesson today kinda tough, swam quite alot but still, it's fun.
After everything, we went to this "hawker" near NYP to have our dinner.
Then ... ...
Home Sweet Home

2004-08-23T20:33:00.001+08:00

On Friday, i had my life saving lesson.
Learnt how to tow a victim, Rather tiring But very fun.
Saturday my day was screwed up.
With 20 miss calls starting from 8am by Alvin. Argh ... ...
And with my html project, Thank god ... ...
Agreed on a movie with Alvin on Thursday.
I cant take it anymore, the pestering and all is unbearable.
Gimme a break.

Meijin i thot u got ur bryan liao, still want to book me on my bdae aR? wont take up ur precious time?
Aiwei, Joyce & Mary thanks wor. HehE =)
Thanks guys, willing to spend ur precious time on my bdae. LOL~ sounds pathetic dont i? hehe
Anyway if u guys are busy, dun bother lah. Its just another day, as long as ppl around me are happy. i'll be happy too =)

Take care guys

2004-08-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today is Mr Quah's funeral.

Taken from Streats on 6th August'o4.

PE teacher believed in tough love

-+-+ Mr Quah siew kow's students remember him as a teacher who meted out tough punishments like ordering them to do 40 push-ups or raising his voice at them.
But the St. Anthony's Canossian Secondary School students also said he was a man with a heart of gold.
Many of them who said they had learnt alot from Mr Quah have been streaming into the Singapore Casket parlour since Tuesday to pay their repects at his funeral wake.
Mr Quah who was diagnosed with stomach cancer four months ago & lost his battle on Aug 2. He was 52 years old.
Said Madam Susan Fong,49 Mr Quah's widow:" On Tuesday, the room was so packed that visitors had to queue up." Even thoughhe was an advocate of tough coaching, Mr Quah, a physical education teacher and trainer of the national tennis team in the 1980s, had touched his student deeper than he knew.
Those who turned up at his wake included students from the 1970s. Madam Fong said one if the visitors was a student her late husband coached in tennis more than 20 years ago. Madam Fong met her husband when they were both relief teachers in a school in Jalan Kechil. She describe her husband of 24 years as a kind man who made sure he spent quality of time with her.
" We were only a year away from our silver wedding anniversary," she said. After he diagnosed with cancer, Mr Quah said he would win the battle and take his wife on a year-end holiday.
Said Sister Angela Ng, supervisor of the canossian school:" His last words were:' Pray for courage. Pray i wont go into despair." -+-+

From the last words, i knew he is staying strong. Fighting bravely against those cancerous cells.
He told Madam Kee that he regretted scolding his student, regretted being harsh on them. Why didnt he say this earlier? But it doesnt matter because all salute him till his last breath & even till now though he is gone. *For those who still hate him, if he ever reprimanded u. Please reflect upon yourself on how silly have you been. He will always lived deep down my heart. Without him, i wont have what i have today. Motivation to fight in my life, determination to strive on.
He will bless people around him in the name of christ, Amen.

2004-08-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

Went to the wake today.
Didnt expect that i'll be meeting my clique of friends for such saddening occasion.
Mr Quah, Look totally different. Seems like another person.
In his nice suit & resting peacefully, make my heart feel at ease.
I nearly cried but i hold back my tears. I knew if i were to cry, People around me will start to cry. Take for instance, If we feel terribly sad, What abt Mrs Quah? The impact had on her is going to be heart breaking.
Probably it is part of life. Everyone gotta part this world, its just the matter of time.
Life is cruel, its so unfair.
Went to visit Eunice, she is in Hospital !!! Oh My GoOdNeSs!
She is having dengue fever. So common nowadays.
Her face is so so so pinkish! swollen ... dear, its so sad.
Take care yeah .. pray for ur speedy recovery!

Alrite .. kinda tired
Shall stop here .. ..

2004-08-04T17:09:00.000+08:00

On Monday 2nd August 2004, Our beloved Mr Quah had departed the world from his kins & people around him @ 6.38am. Upon hearing the news, my heart aches. Perhaps i should think in a way that it's a relief for him. My juniors went to the wake & said that he look like as though he is in his 70s, But he died at the age of 52. What a pity. Anyway tomolo i'll be going to his wake with my clique of friends. Hopefully i wont cry tomolo cz my heart is always so fragile.

Anyway have 4 long draggy hours of break today.
So bored, Lots of things happened in school recently.
Dunno is it a good thing or a bad thing. But i think is bad.
The class is spliting. Taken from my classmate[Simon]"Drawing Intersections inside the Universal Set". Hopefully this will never never be true.
People all living in the world of reality, wearing a mask towards one another.
Why is this happening? Probably Life is just the matter of making use of one another [this is wad i Assume].
Aint coping well with my C Programming & Html. Dead for sure *Sigh*
Stress is a Factor for Studying, So terrible.

Well today is Our Beloved Syahida's Big Day!
Sincerely wishing her a Happy 18th Birthday. Please do not Show off ur age in front of me.
HaHa, i got another 2 more months to go in order to catch up with u.
So ... lets wait LOL~
Anyway do enjoy alritE? Take care.

Alrite thou shall stop here.

2004-07-28T20:15:00.000+08:00

Upon hearing a shocking news from KaiLin, i fell into depression.
Mr Quah (my Beloved PE teacher) is suffering from the last stage of colon cancer.
He got only a week or even less than a week to survive! *Sob*
Life is so unfair, he've been leading a healthy lifestyle.
Though he always scold people & nv will he admit his mistakes though it's his fault.
Teachers hate him, Students hate him.
Probably this is wat they call Retribution, But i'll always respect him & salute him wholeheartedly. No matter how far he leave, i'll always keep him in my memories.
He changed my opinion towards my life.
The thought of him departing this world, just break my heart & tears starts rolling down. Though he can finally end his pain & suffering BUT i believe he've lots of unfulfilled dreams.
I'll miss him.
*Dear god, u choose to take his life away. For the least that u can help him, please ease his pain & let him fulfilled the dreams. Probably the best thing u could do is to allow him to taste the warmth of family. He've been slogging for St. Anthony for as long as it was established in middle road. He've made countless commitments to the school, its just so unfair. WHY?!?*

After school, went to catch "sisters" with him.
The show simply freak me out. Just like sadako, Long hair .. Cover half the face .. Only show an eye. Oh My GoOdNesS, paid money to scare myself! How dumb of me. HeHe =D
Should have watch Ella Enchanted instead =P
I dont know if we are progressing good, all i noe is i'll try.
The least i can do for u & me.
Hope things will just turn out well.
Alrite shall stopped here.
tata

2004-07-24T14:41:00.000+08:00

First Life-Saving Lessons were tedious!
Whole body is aching, But overall it was fun.
There is 2 more gers, so no worries!
But the number of guys increases! haha
Yesterday was all about swimming.
Teaches some of them side strokes & we were taught on how to perfect our free-style, back-stroke & breast-stroke.
So tiring~
Learn how to do html ytd. Rather pissed off, probably i've got no idea wad i'm doing. Or maybe some unexpected things cropped up. hai~@!
Thinking that life in poly just aint good than seconday. If u got doubts, can ask one another unlike poly.
The world is just so realistic, selfish & ugly.
Hai~@! alrite nothing to say le.
Homework time, sianz!

2004-07-12T21:06:00.000+08:00

There is nothing to blog.
I shall let the below lyric express my emotional feelings.
Words aint everything.
Silence shall be the best answer right now.

Celion Dion
"Just Walk Away"

I noe I nv loved tis way before
And no one else has loved me more
With u I've laughed & cried
I have lived & died
What I wouldn't do just to be with u

I know I must forget u & go on
I can't hold back my tears too long
Though life won't be the same
I've got to take the blame
And find the strength I need to let u go

Just walk away
Just say goodbye
Don't turn around nw u may see me cry
I mustn't fall apart
Or show my broken heart
Or the love I feel for u

So walk away
And close the door
And let my life be as it was before
And I'll nv never know
Just how I let you go
But there's nothing left to say
Just walk away

There'll never be a moment I'll regret
I've loved u since the day we met
For all the love u gave
And all the love we made
I know I've got to find the strength to say

Just walk away
Just say goodbye
Don't turn around nw u may see me cry
I mustn't fall apart
Or show my broken heart
Or the love I feel for u

So walk away
And close the door
And let my life be as it was before
And I'll never never know
Just how I let you go
But there's nothing left to say
Just walk away

2004-07-09T11:03:00.001+08:00

Woke up at 10am, couldnt get back into sleep.
So went for a jog. HeHe~
Yesterday was a short day, But kinda tough.
Learn lots of new stuffs. Hai~@!
Today school ends before 6pm.
And i have Life-Saving briefing at 7pm.
Whom i'm the only pathetic girl!
Kinda disadvantage to me, because i cant pair up with a guy~
So its better for me to find one girl & persuade her to join. hai~@! BUT who will JOIN? haha
Next friday starts first lesson, 7pm - 9pm. Another hectic day.
The total cost for this whole thingy will cost me $400 with cert~ Dunno worth it anot. BUt i really want to try! hehe
By the time i reach home will be somewhere around 11pm. Hai~@!

Chat with Eileen ytd. She told me tat she wans 2 opt out & wait 4 another yr.
The decision is still hers BUT i wish to change her decision.
KaiLin & I is struggling with our course. But we strive our best So tat neither 1 of us will drop out. Coz we'd already wasted 1yr & cant afford to waste another yr. Nth starts off easy as u know. During our O'levels, How many times have i been wanting to give up. B4 Prelim, after receiving Chinese O'level results & after prelim. Everything just got so demoralised, But u guys have been telling me tat y should i give up when i'm already half way thru' So i hang on...Dint i? I even cried when i Hug my mama telling her i'm too tired to move on with life. She really knows i'm tired then She told me, no matter what the overall results is, it Doesnt matter. As long as i work hard, thats enough. Though i started off late BUT i didnt stop trying.
So Eileen, u r much more better than me. Dun give up everything so easily as nothing start off easy right from the start alrite? U noe how hard i've pulled thru'. Seen Miss Chua, etc have been counselling me, dont u? So if i can do it, u can do it too. Have faith in yourself. U might not like the course now but doesnt mean u wun like it in future, okie? Anyway its just a piece of advice. The final decision is still yours. Take care & do re-consider yeah?

2004-07-08T00:11:00.001+08:00

Today we Have 3 hours of break before the next lesson.
As usual, Lecturer ends lesson early.
Walked to Ang Mo Kio Interchange, have our lunch & after that the guys went for a round of billiard. The girls just spread themselves around, Some watched .. Some fell asleep ..
Went back to school for LectureS.
At E-Learning Lab, Which we did practically NOTHING but just online study.
End school at 2.50pm. Got a talk on STD & AIDS till abt 4.30pm.
Roam around the CCA club crawl, had Signed up for Kayaking & Life-Saving.
But i think i will take Life-Saving. Its something i've been yearning for HeHe~

2004-07-01T18:52:00.000+08:00

Miss You Like Crazy

I used to call you my girl-[Boy],
I used to call you my friend,
I used to call you the love,
The love that i never had...

When i think of you,
I dont know what to do,
When will i see you again...

I miss you like crazy,
Even more than words can say,
I miss you like crazy,
Every minute Of every day ... Girl-[Boy] i'm So down,
When your love's not around,
I miss you, miss you, miss you...
I miss you like Crazy.

You are all that i want,
You are all that i need,
Cant you see how i feel,
Cant you see that my pain so real,
When i think of you,
I dont know what to do,
When will i see you again ...

I miss you like crazy

Nothing much to blog today, Cause nothing great has happened.
To be continued ... ...

2004-06-30T21:03:00.001+08:00

There's a black out yesterday.
Kinda fun, the whole estate was pitched black.
All i can see was people shining their torch.
I was Hoping tt my brother have to climb the stairs all the way to 14th floor. But sad to say, electricity resume before he comes home.
Went to look for him today.
Hai~@! It seems like i've not seen him for like weeks!
Looking at my school time-table, makes me kinda sad.

Misses my Secondary School life, Misses all my Friends.
Hope u guys are doing fine! Enjoy ur life in PolyS

2004-06-28T23:38:00.001+08:00

A brand new beginning of my life.
So decided to start off this journey with a brand new blog.
Life isnt easy, Its tough aint it?
Though Life is unpredictable BUT we can change our own destiny.
Nothing starts off perfect, cause in life dere is no perfection.
Obsticles in life may be depressing BUT there is no reasons for one to give up. Instead one should try & overcome it.
Alrite Enough of Life,
The journey just move on ... ...

Start off My new blog with the day.
Meet up with KaiLin, Eunice & Samuel[new classmate] today.
Went to Bugis & then Far East.
Shopping Spree, Not for me BUT for Samuel & KaiLin.
HeHe