Its 3days after the 7th day of the wake.
Stayed up on Sunday. Because i Know its gonna be the last chance to see my grandpa in person.
Being looking at him lying peacefully in the coffin.
Seems like i have tons of things to say to him. But everything is too late.
I wanted to let him know he had been a fabulous grandpa and i wish to be his grand-daughter the next life.
Chemical injected on my grandpa is no longer taking effect.
His chest went flat, His head starts to shrink, His nose starts to dent in, His dark rings are no longer in sight.
I was telling myself i have to remember for life how my grandpa looked till his very last day.
But now i only have a vague memory. I am only left with pictures and his long eyebrows.

Monday was the cremation day.
The coffin was beautiful decorated with flowers. My grandpa looks great.
When the person asked us to take the last look of my grandpa before they close the window of the coffin. I teared. I told myself not to cry, but i can bring myself to stop crying. It hurts me badly. My heart is tearing apart.
When we reached mandai the cremorial place.
I feel scared all of a sudden. I cant let them take him away.
Pay the last respect. And they pushed him in.
We went to the viewing hall .. praying and praying.
But when we see the coffin being pushed. The harder i cried.
I breaked down completely.
At that very moment, all i can say is was "AH GONG ! AH GONG !".
Seeing the coffin moving closer and closer to the door of cremation ...
I feel like DYING ..
The whole world collapse.
Till the Coffin starts diminshed in the vision of our sight, the door shuts.
That's why i realised i have totally lose my grandpa.
I dont wish to accept the fact. I dont wish to face the reality. It is too much of an impact.
I cant take it.
I cried till my leg wobble, and my dad support me... All i can onli say was:"Daddy Daddy!"
I wanna tell him how much i want my grandpa back. But i cant speak a single word.
Tragic..
My dad see me cried so bitterly, he cant helped it but cried too.

Grandpa finally reunite with Grandma after 7 long years.
They will watch over us. They will be happy and no more suffering from pain and sickness.
I love you, grandpa.
I love you too, grandma.

Missed badly by me.

24 Dec 1924 to 15 Aug 2006
I will always bear it in mind.
The day when it starts inflicting pain.