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Stephanie
Born to Live in the ReaLity of this World on 13th October 1986

I have all the Love from my FAMILY

I've got my Love Ones .. But i Lost my Love Ones too

To the Heart filled with Sorrow .. in Remembrance to my Love ones

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Monday, October 31, 2005-`

I dreamt.
In the middle of the night at 4 am. my grandpa fell terribly.
Forehead is swollen but not bleeding.
Apparently before he fell, he was having stroke. But no one realised.
Right now, Grandpa is lying on the hospital bed helplessly.
Weakness has overcome his entire body strength, body is not functioning well.
Awaiting for a person to hold him, to assure him once again that he will be alrite.
Looking at the back of his kins walking out of that lonely room, thinking that we are leaving him alone.
But in actual fact, we are all waiting out there for him, for that particular day when we can bring him home.
Prayers no longer helps, the determination within him will makes him live strong.
Kins trying to reach out to him, but there is no way we could grab him.
That blood clot right at his left brain is bleeding. The moment the doctor told us that, our heart bleeds together.
That clot will cause a senile in him. Probably within a day or even a week, he will never recognise us again.
Either the clot vanish or it will burst as it grows bigger.
And then, he will be living in coma.
A world where no one can reach out to him and vice versa.
For a moment, my world seems crumbling down. I felt so lost and nevertheless i feel so weak and helpless too.
I wish in this dream Miracle will happened and i m still waiting for the mirage.
My heart is confused. My mind swirl.
I wish i could understand wad he is going thru'.
Once that dream is over.
Things no longer virtual. It becames Reality.
I wish it was all a dream. I wish this dream will nv comes true.
BUT it turn out to be as real as anything.
Dear god, all i can onli asked for now is hoping u could walk thru' this pain with him.

onceheaven * [9:13 AM]