The Promise Land

Wednesday, July 28, 2004-`

Upon hearing a shocking news from KaiLin, i fell into depression.
Mr Quah (my Beloved PE teacher) is suffering from the last stage of colon cancer.
He got only a week or even less than a week to survive! *Sob*
Life is so unfair, he've been leading a healthy lifestyle.
Though he always scold people & nv will he admit his mistakes though it's his fault.
Teachers hate him, Students hate him.
Probably this is wat they call Retribution, But i'll always respect him & salute him wholeheartedly. No matter how far he leave, i'll always keep him in my memories.
He changed my opinion towards my life.
The thought of him departing this world, just break my heart & tears starts rolling down. Though he can finally end his pain & suffering BUT i believe he've lots of unfulfilled dreams.
I'll miss him.
*Dear god, u choose to take his life away. For the least that u can help him, please ease his pain & let him fulfilled the dreams. Probably the best thing u could do is to allow him to taste the warmth of family. He've been slogging for St. Anthony for as long as it was established in middle road. He've made countless commitments to the school, its just so unfair. WHY?!?*

After school, went to catch "sisters" with him.
The show simply freak me out. Just like sadako, Long hair .. Cover half the face .. Only show an eye. Oh My GoOdNesS, paid money to scare myself! How dumb of me. HeHe =D
Should have watch Ella Enchanted instead =P
I dont know if we are progressing good, all i noe is i'll try.
The least i can do for u & me.
Hope things will just turn out well.
Alrite shall stopped here.
tata

onceheaven * [8:15 PM]

Saturday, July 24, 2004-`

First Life-Saving Lessons were tedious!
Whole body is aching, But overall it was fun.
There is 2 more gers, so no worries!
But the number of guys increases! haha
Yesterday was all about swimming.
Teaches some of them side strokes & we were taught on how to perfect our free-style, back-stroke & breast-stroke.
So tiring~
Learn how to do html ytd. Rather pissed off, probably i've got no idea wad i'm doing. Or maybe some unexpected things cropped up. hai~@!
Thinking that life in poly just aint good than seconday. If u got doubts, can ask one another unlike poly.
The world is just so realistic, selfish & ugly.
Hai~@! alrite nothing to say le.
Homework time, sianz!

onceheaven * [2:41 PM]

Monday, July 12, 2004-`

There is nothing to blog.
I shall let the below lyric express my emotional feelings.
Words aint everything.
Silence shall be the best answer right now.

Celion Dion
"Just Walk Away"

I noe I nv loved tis way before
And no one else has loved me more
With u I've laughed & cried
I have lived & died
What I wouldn't do just to be with u

I know I must forget u & go on
I can't hold back my tears too long
Though life won't be the same
I've got to take the blame
And find the strength I need to let u go

Just walk away
Just say goodbye
Don't turn around nw u may see me cry
I mustn't fall apart
Or show my broken heart
Or the love I feel for u

So walk away
And close the door
And let my life be as it was before
And I'll nv never know
Just how I let you go
But there's nothing left to say
Just walk away

There'll never be a moment I'll regret
I've loved u since the day we met
For all the love u gave
And all the love we made
I know I've got to find the strength to say

Just walk away
Just say goodbye
Don't turn around nw u may see me cry
I mustn't fall apart
Or show my broken heart
Or the love I feel for u

So walk away
And close the door
And let my life be as it was before
And I'll never never know
Just how I let you go
But there's nothing left to say
Just walk away

onceheaven * [9:06 PM]

Friday, July 09, 2004-`

Woke up at 10am, couldnt get back into sleep.
So went for a jog. HeHe~
Yesterday was a short day, But kinda tough.
Learn lots of new stuffs. Hai~@!
Today school ends before 6pm.
And i have Life-Saving briefing at 7pm.
Whom i'm the only pathetic girl!
Kinda disadvantage to me, because i cant pair up with a guy~
So its better for me to find one girl & persuade her to join. hai~@! BUT who will JOIN? haha
Next friday starts first lesson, 7pm - 9pm. Another hectic day.
The total cost for this whole thingy will cost me $400 with cert~ Dunno worth it anot. BUt i really want to try! hehe
By the time i reach home will be somewhere around 11pm. Hai~@!

Chat with Eileen ytd. She told me tat she wans 2 opt out & wait 4 another yr.
The decision is still hers BUT i wish to change her decision.
KaiLin & I is struggling with our course. But we strive our best So tat neither 1 of us will drop out. Coz we'd already wasted 1yr & cant afford to waste another yr. Nth starts off easy as u know. During our O'levels, How many times have i been wanting to give up. B4 Prelim, after receiving Chinese O'level results & after prelim. Everything just got so demoralised, But u guys have been telling me tat y should i give up when i'm already half way thru' So i hang on...Dint i? I even cried when i Hug my mama telling her i'm too tired to move on with life. She really knows i'm tired then She told me, no matter what the overall results is, it Doesnt matter. As long as i work hard, thats enough. Though i started off late BUT i didnt stop trying.
So Eileen, u r much more better than me. Dun give up everything so easily as nothing start off easy right from the start alrite? U noe how hard i've pulled thru'. Seen Miss Chua, etc have been counselling me, dont u? So if i can do it, u can do it too. Have faith in yourself. U might not like the course now but doesnt mean u wun like it in future, okie? Anyway its just a piece of advice. The final decision is still yours. Take care & do re-consider yeah?

onceheaven * [11:03 AM]

Thursday, July 08, 2004-`

Today we Have 3 hours of break before the next lesson.
As usual, Lecturer ends lesson early.
Walked to Ang Mo Kio Interchange, have our lunch & after that the guys went for a round of billiard. The girls just spread themselves around, Some watched .. Some fell asleep ..
Went back to school for LectureS.
At E-Learning Lab, Which we did practically NOTHING but just online study.
End school at 2.50pm. Got a talk on STD & AIDS till abt 4.30pm.
Roam around the CCA club crawl, had Signed up for Kayaking & Life-Saving.
But i think i will take Life-Saving. Its something i've been yearning for HeHe~

onceheaven * [12:11 AM]

Thursday, July 01, 2004-`

Miss You Like Crazy

I used to call you my girl-[Boy],
I used to call you my friend,
I used to call you the love,
The love that i never had...

When i think of you,
I dont know what to do,
When will i see you again...

I miss you like crazy,
Even more than words can say,
I miss you like crazy,
Every minute Of every day ... Girl-[Boy] i'm So down,
When your love's not around,
I miss you, miss you, miss you...
I miss you like Crazy.

You are all that i want,
You are all that i need,
Cant you see how i feel,
Cant you see that my pain so real,
When i think of you,
I dont know what to do,
When will i see you again ...

I miss you like crazy

Nothing much to blog today, Cause nothing great has happened.
To be continued ... ...

onceheaven * [6:52 PM]